I Miss You ~ Sirius Black ~

This

I've been awake since the moment the clock struck 3. Every time my eyes close and I'm engulfed by the darkness my mind wanders and relives the memories of my life in school and if I'm unlucky I remember the day Severus popped back into my life with dreadful news.

Either way I didn't want to go back to sleep, so I ventured down to the kitchen where I found Kreacher sulking and mumuring to himself.

"Kreacher is still loyal to the mistress. Kreacher shouldn't let filthy blood traitors take away mistresses belingings," he droned on and on.

"Kreacher?," I asked timidly, the thing scared me! "Would you mind making me a cup of tea?"

He whirled to face me! His face was turned into a cold expression an he hissed,"Kreacher serve a half blood !"

I stepped away from him and bumped into someone's hard chest. Black's arms circled around me and he faced Kreacher with a glare equal to his.

"Kreacher, get out!"

Kreacher stiffened at the order his only master sent him but other wise slinked away taking with him a necklace that he clutched in his skeletal hands. As soon as he left I shot out of Blacks arms and walked stiffly to the kettle. I'm sure my face was red, I mean he held me!

"So, um...do you want some tea?," I chocked out.

He sighed, "yeah."

An awkward silence settled in around us. I stayed close to the stove, not wanting to risk him seeing my obviously reddened face. From the corner of my eye I watched Black as he rubbed his head, worry lines etched on his face.

"You shouldn't worry so much," I warned him ,"you'll grow worry lines. Women don't find that attractive at all." Teasing him was the best I could do to settle the awkward tension.

"Haha. Can't help it can I? Harry's hearing is today, what if they do expel him? Where is he going to study?"

I rolled my eyes at him and took a seat across from him,"come on! He's Harry Potter for Merlin's sakes! He won't possibly get expelled... Have some faith will you?"

He nodded his head, his curls bouncing every which way," of course. Your right!"

I laughed as a strand of hair stood up from the rest. He looked so ridiculous! With out thinking I reached out, my hand patted down his hair and god did it feel soooo good!! We both looked at each other at my sudden movement, his warm grey eyes against my light brown ones. My heart beat quickened as his face leaned toward mine. we were inches apart from each other. and It would have been an almost kiss if Molly hasn't barged in. Damn that women!

"Oh am I interrupting something!?," she gasped and her face lit red.

I shook my head,"No, you got here just in time. Kettles heating call me when it's done."

As I turned away from the kitchen I gave a little shudder, it's almost as if I could feel his eyes following me out. Though it gave me a kind of pleasure to know we almost kissed my mind chastised me. We hate Black! He broke our hearts! How could you let THAT almost happen!!

"Whatever," I sighed before flopping back on my bed.

I needed more rest.

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Continue?! I think yes!!!

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"Harry! How did it go?," I asked enthusiastically after he got back.

He looked sad for a moment and I truly lost all hope but then he broke into a giant smile.

"Eeep!!! Harry you did it! I know you could!!,' I cheered while wrapping my arms around him.

He laughed,"I haven't even said anything yet!"

"Oh but I know you won!"

He laughed and I couldn't help but kiss his cheek. He did it! Harry got off! He stiffened at first but then he blushed and hugged me again.

"I'm so happy," I whispered.

We hugged for what felt like hours until someone - and I mean Black - coughed obnoxiously. Gosh he's so rude!

"You should go get that checked . It might be life threatening," I feigned concern.

Black scoffed,"will you just give the boy some space! Your practically suffocating him."

I suck my tongue out at him but sighed and dislodged myself from Harry. I smiled at him before running into the kitchen yelling,"He's free!"

"He was never locked up in the first place," Remus mused.

"We'll you know what I mean! God Remus just enjoy the god damn moment!," I huffed at him.

He laughed at me before turning to Harry. When did he get here?

"You know you can tell him that your his godmother," Black said from behind me.

"Nah not right now. He has you already I don't want to take away your lime light and I'm just fine with him not knowing."

I sighed in content as I watched him joke around with his friends. I still couldn't get over te fact that he looked so much like James the resembles was so uncanny. If only he was older when they died then he would at least have known them. It must feel horrible having all these people tell you things about your parents but you never got to k ow them your self. Poor Harry.

"Mae?," Black whispered.

"Yeah."

His hand pulled on my hand,"Can we talk privately?"

But before I could answer him I was already being dragged toward the other room,"oh yeah Black just drag me around I don't mind.not one bit."

He turned me around so I could face him an to be honest he looked troubled.

"So...what did you want to talk about?," I asked him.

"I wanted to tell you that the thing that was gonna happen earlier today...in the kitchen....the...the kiss. I - that meant-,"

My heart clenched in side me. He's gonna say it mention nothing to him. No I can't be rejected twice!

"Save your breathe Black. I know what your gonna say-" I started to say , pulling out of his grasp.

He growled and his grasp in me tightened,"No, no you don't. You have no idea what I'm about to say! Now just hold on and let me finishing talking! That kiss or the almost kiss, I wanted it to happen I did. Still do, Mae! Can't you see that I'm freaking in love with you since our first year in Hogwarts it's alway been you!"

I shook my head,"no your lying to me!"

"Why would you think that?"

"Because you always dated other girls. And I waited for you all those years when I could have dated Remus, where I could have had a boyfriend. But I didn't because of you."

"Wait, wait! Remus?! When?"

I sighed," he asked me out once but I made it perfectly clear that I liked someone else. You to be matter of factly"

He looked at me hard as if trying to figure something out before he asked "and do you?"

"Do I what?," I asked dumbly.

"Still like me?"

My eyes looked down and my cheeks heated up,' yes...maybe... I don't know!"

God I felt like I was in school again.

He chuckled at me,"that's all I need to know."

"For what?"

"This," he said and his soft perfect lips crashed down on mine.

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