Unspoken Love- "It Was Always You"

Kya Karu Mai....

    Sid did not go behind her because he was scared. Scared not of her, but himself. Because he wanted to kiss that tears and hurt away. He wanted to hug her tight, carry her in his arms and take her somewhere far, and damn with this world. But he can't and he won't. He is not good for her. She deserves much, much better. And besides there is that.....nothing....more importantly he also couldn't go because his guests were waiting for him.
     He had seen her exit through the main door. He removed his mobile and called his driver.
Sid: Vilas, meri baat dhyaan se suno. Shehnaaz madam ab bahar aa rahi hai. Usse ghar chodne ke liye offer karo.
Vilas: Thek hai boss.
     Sid disconnected the call and walked towards his guest. As he reaches his table his mobile buzzed again. It was Vilas.
Sid: Bolo Vilas??
Vilas: Boss vo mana kar rahi hai. Cab bulaya hai unhone....
Sid: I knew it.... She is so..... Accha theek hai. Par tum uske cab ke piche jaana...... Aur jab vo uske ghar ke andar jaaye, tab he laut aana...
Vilas: Ok boss....
Sid: Aur haa..... Vo uske gate me enter hote he mujhe call karna.
Vilas: Jee... Jee...
     Sid disconnected the call. Why did he always feel so helpless where this girl is concern?? He just want to wrangle that delicate neck of her's. He looked at his guest and saw them eyeing him. Sid cleared his throat and gave them a smile. They smiled back.
One Guest: You are a bit distracted Mr Siddharth...
Sid: I'm.... I'm sorry....
Other Guest: But the distraction is beautiful...
Sid: (To himself) Tell me about it....
     He gave a laugh and they all joined in.
One Guest: You should bring her to our place...
Sid: No... No... It's nothing like that.. It's... It's just....
Other Guest: No?? But you both look so good together?? Why not??
Sid: It's complicated.....
     Sid then changed the topic and they ordered food.
      Sid was in the middle of some conversation, when his mobile buzzed. He picked it up.
Sid: Ha Vilas...
Vilas: Sir, Sana didi ghar pahuch gayi.
Sid: Ok... Ok... Thank you Vilas...
Vilas: Mai ab club aa jaau??
Sid: Ha aa jaau.
     It was one at night when Sid reached home. He got fresh and lay on the bed looking at the ceiling. His  hands were itching to pick that mobile and call her. She was truly hurt today. The pain on her face had made him feel so helpless... Oh God what should I do?? Call her, said his heart. For once listen to me... You won't be able to sleep if you don't talk to her tonight... At least see if she is ok......You have caused her pain... So it's your moral duty to see if she is fine... His heart was ranting in his ears like crazy.
     Sid got up from the bed and picked the mobile from the bedside table and walked to the balcony. He dialled her number with shivering hands. Sana picked up the call in second ring.
Sid: Sho... Sana....
Sana: Siddharth....
     Sid could hear her crying.
Sid: I'm sorry....
Sana: I'm sorry...
      They both said it in union. There was a long silence then. Sid broke that silence after a few moments.
Sid: Tune kuch khaya??
Sana: Mmmhmm
Sid: Kyu??
Sana: Aise he..
Sid: Jaa kuch khaa le...
Sana: Nhi.. Siddharth vo mere nails... Tujhe zyada to nhi lagi na??
Sid: Nahi...
Sana: Hmmm
Sid: Tu abhi tak jagi kyu hai??
Sana: Aise he...
Sid; Hmmm
Sana: Ek baat puchu??
Sid: Shona tu....
Sana: Tu mujhse itni nafrat kyu karta hai??
They was a long silence from Sid's side. Then he spoke.
Sid: Tu jaanti hai....
Sana: Mai nhi jaanti Siddharth....
Sid: Sana..... Tu so jaa baby....
Sana: Thodi der aur baat kar na please....
Sid: Nahi.... So jaa please....
Sana: Neend nhi aa rahi hai...
Sid: Aankh band kar... Mai hu yaha... Mai nhi jaa raha kahi.. Tu soo jaa....
Sana: Thek hai.... Good night...
Sid: Good night....
     And he held the mobile to his ears until he could hear her soft breathing go steady. Sid then disconnected the call and lay on the bed, happy that he had listened to his heart today.
     Sana woke up the next morning all happy and chirpy. She ran down to the dinning Hall, where Sana's papa and bade papa were having breakfast. She kissed them both good morning and sat next to her bade papa. This was her place since her childhood. Her bade papa would feed her with his own hands when she was small. This is how much she was loved by him.
Sana: Mama, breakfast.....
     Vihaan too joined in.
Vihaan: Aaj bade acche mood me hai madam jee....
Sana: Haa bahot...
Vihaan; Puch sakta hu kyu??
Sana: Aise he... Kyu nhi hona chahiye kya??
Bade papa: Meri gudiya ko to hamesha he acchi mood me rehna chahiye..... Seema, Sana ka breakfast kaha hai?? Jaldi laao. Bacchi wait kar rahi hai.
Seema: Laa rahi hu bhaisaab....
Sana: Bade papa, papa....
Papa: Bolo beta??
Sana: Vo mujhe shopping jaana hai....
     Seema came with a tray in her hands.
Seema: Kya....kya shopping.... Khabardaar agar tu kapde layi to.... Pehle vo cupboard bhare hue jo pade hai, usse ek ek baar pehen le fir dusre kapde lana.
Sana: Mummy yaar...
Seema: Yaar, vyaar kuch nhi... Mai bata de rahi hu tujhe Sana....
Papa: Tum dono fir se shuru ho gaye. Sana, beta kitni zidd...
Bade papa: Preetam, Seema.....
Sana: Bade papa. Mujhe shadi ke liye naye kapde chahiye, matlab chahiye... Sab shopping kar rahe hai. Sirf mai na karu??
Bade papa: Ok... Ok.. Ab apna mood karab mat karo beta... Kar lo shopping shadi ke liye. But remember your parents will always think good for you.
Sana: I know bade papa.
Bade papa: Now say sorry to your mummy...
     Sana got up and hugged her mummy.
Sana: I'm sorry.
     Her mummy kissed her cheeks.
Mummy: Accha chal nasta kar ab. Thanda ho gaya hai.
Vihaan: Agar tum dono ka emotional drama khatam ho gaya ho to kya iss gareeb ko breakfast mil sakta hai??
Seema: Tumhari Badi Maa tumhara nasta bana rahi hai. Ab tumhe unke hath ka he Omlette chahiye hota hai to kya kare...
Badi Maa came with a plate in her hand and sat next to Vihaan.
Badi Maa: Le Beta... Aur kya hangama chal raha hai..
Vihaan: Subah subah yeh Maa, beti ka drama.. Beti ko shopping jaana hai, Maa mana kar rahi hai...
Seema: Vihaan, teri zubaan kuch zyada lambi nhi hue hai??
Badi Maa: Seema.... Bacche hai.... Aur rahi shopping ki baat, yeh sab hum kar kiske liye rahe hai?? Inhi ke liye he na?? To mat roka kar meri gudiya ko..
Sana: Awww meri pyari Badi Maa..
     Sana got up and hugged her badi Maa too.
Bade papa: Reena gudiya ko jo chahiye vo de dena.
Badi Maa: Jee...
     It's been hours, Sana, Aaru and Ritu have been shopping in the mall. Ritu and Amit had reached Mumbai in the morning.
Sana: Aaru bas ho gaya yaar.... Mere pair dard de rahi.... Maine nhi chalna ab...
Aaru: Sana natak mat kar... Chal abhi aur do floors baaki hai. Aur tune to shadi ke liye abhi tak kuch liya bhi nhi hai.
Ritu: Sana....
Sana: Ritu, please... Please thoda food court jaate hai, pair ko aaraam dete hai. Kuch khate pite hai, fir dekhenge. .. Ok??
Ritu: Accha chal thek hai...
Sana: Thank God..
Aaru: Ab food court tak bhi khud chalegi ya gaadi mangvau tere liye...
Sana: Mangva de na please...
Aaru: Chal uth nautanki.
     Aaru pulled Sana by her hand and they walked to the food court. As they entered, Sana turned towards her right..
Sana: Bahot pyaas lagi hai, iced tea laati hu. Tum dono ko kuch chahiye??
Aaru: Nahi hum menu dekhte hai. Tu aa jaa...
Sana: Ok... Cool.
     She was feeling so light for the past two days. Sid has spoken to her. There was concern in his voice when he had called. He had not disconnected the call until she had not drifted into sleep. She was happy. Very happy...
     Sana reached the counter.
Sana: One iced tea..
Sid: Three cold coffees please....
     Sana felt she must have not heard it right. No this can't be it. She turned her head to the left to find Sid standing inches away looking at her with his deep brown eyes. Sana eyes grew wide in surprise. Sid too raised his eyebrows. Of course he was here. He was here to shop with Amit bhaiya. They both looked behind and saw, Aaru and Ritu had met Amit and yogesh and were now settling on one table.
Waiter: Ma'am aapki iced tea.
     Sid hands brushed over Sana's unknowingly and they both felt the current run through their body. They both looked at each other for few seconds and forced themselves to look at the waiter.
Sana: Oh... Ha.. Yes..
      She was about to open her purse.
Sid: Tu chal... Mai pay karke aata hu...
     Sana nodded and walked to where the others were sitting. He was drinking her in... What am I going to do with this girl... He was thinking...
Waiter: Your coffee sir..... Excuse me sir...
Sid: Haa... Ha.. Ha... Sure sure.... How much...
     Sana had walked to the table. She could feel his eyes on her and so had gone red when she reached the table. She sat on the empty chair next to Aaru. She smiled at all of them. Her eyes stopped on Amit who was looking at her curiously.
Sana: Kaise ho Amit bhaiya??
Amit: Ekdm badiya... Tu bata?? Kahi se bhag ke aayi hai kya?? Chehra ekdm lal hua hai??
Sana: Nahi.... Vo.... Iced tea....Iced tea  lene gai the...
Amit: Oh Accha.... Siddharth mila ya nhi...
Sana: Huu?? Ha... Ha... Vo coffee... Coffee le raha hai..
Amit: Oh... Accha.. Accha...
Yogesh: Gudiya tune kuch liya ya nhi??
Sana: Nahi bhaiya abhi tak kuch pasand he nhi aa raha hai...
     Sid came with the tray and placed it on the table. He pulled a chair and sat next to Sana. Sid looked at Amit when he cleared his throat. Sid gave him a stare.
Amit: Kya baat hai, yaha ka ac thek se nhi chal raha hai kya??
Yogesh: Chal to raha hai... Kyu??
Amit: Are Siddharth aur Sana ke chehre dekhe?? Aise lag raha hai dono koi marathan me daud ke aaye ho aur unke heartbeats tez chal rahe ho..
      Sid so wanted to punch this man's face. He was enjoying himself at his expense. Sid gave Amit a look and if looks could kill Amit would be a dead man by now. Amit chuckled.
Yogesh: Tu thek hai na Gudiya?? Teri tabiyat theek hai na??
Sana: Ha thek hu mai bhaiya.. Ritu, Aaru tum logo ne order nhi karni?? Bhuk lagi hai mujhe..
Ritu: Humne to decide kar liya hai.. Tu bata tu kya khayegi??
Sana: Mere liye burger le aa.
Ritu: Ok thek hai.
     Ritu and Aaru got up to go.
Yogesh: Ruko mai bhi aata hu tum dono ke sath
     All three left the table. Sana was toying with a keychain attached to her purse and Sid was looking at her long and beautiful fingers. He so wanted those hands in his hairs. Roaming, pulling, massaging. As she used to, five years back. Sid and Sana both heard Amit clear his throat again and looked at him..
Sid: Pani pi... Amit... Pani pi..
Amit: Pata nhi kya ho gaya hai gale me achanak se..
Sid: Zeher laakar du beta?? Zeher khaayega to thek ho jaayega tu...
Amit: Abe shadi hai meri agle mahine... Zinda rehna hai mujhe...
Sid: To yeh sab stunts hai na.. Vo band karde..
Amit: Maine kya kiya?? Chal bata kya kiya maine?? Chod tu nhi bol paayega..... Vaise Sana tu bata.... Tune kuch kharida ke nhi, mere shadi ke liye??
Sana: Nahi bhaiya abhi liya nhi... Vo third floor pe ek designer studio hai, dekhte hai vaha kya milta hai.
Amit: Accha?? To hum bhi chalte hai tum logo ke sath, mujhe bhi Aarohi ke liye kuch dekhna hai....
Sid: Oh f.. K man....
Amit: Kya?? Kya hua??
Sid: Vo... Kuch nhi.... Par tu to abhi thodi der pehle kahi aur jaane ke baat kar raha tha na??
Amit: Plan Changed. Ab hum in logo ke sath shopping karenge.
     Sid looked at Sana and saw a smile on her face and happiness in her eyes. He could feel her breathing heavily and knew her heart was racing as was his. He so didn't wanted to wipe that smile away by refusing to Amit's plan.
Sid: Hmmm thek hai.... Sahi hai...
     Amit looked at Sid with surprise, but when he saw Sana's face he knew why his brother and best friend had agreed to his plan.
      The others joined in with tray loaded with food and they all ate their full. Sana was conscious of Sid besides her and so was Sid. They all then shifted to the studio.
     The designer and her assistants were helping them choose their dresses. Sana had not tried any till now. Aaru and Ritu were trying the once they liked. And then Sana's eyes fell on a bright pink with light green embroidery lehenga which was on the far end of the stand. She got up and went to it. Sid eyes were following her. Sana removed it from the stand and fell in love with it. She will try it she thought.
Sana: Excuse me?? Can I try this one??
Designer: Of course.. Of course I was about to show you that. It will look beautiful on you..... Jyoti, madam ko help karo....
     The assistant walked Sana to the trail room and helped her with the lehenga.
     Sid was busy in his mobile when Sana walked out of the trail room.
Designer: I had never thought this dress would look so beautiful. It's because of you sweetheart.. This is made just for you....
     And then Sid looked to his right and the mobile in his hand fell down on the floor. His heart beat increased. His hands started shivering. He could not move nor look away. He was bewitched by such beauty.
Aaru: Sana you are looking gorgeous.
     But Sana's eyes were on only one person, the person she has always loved and will never stop loving. Not until her last breath. She could feel his gaze burn her. She started feeling hot and her cheeks went red. She removed her eyes from him and smiled at others.
Ritu: Sana tu yahi pehen bhai ki shaadi me.
      Sana then turned around and walked to a cubical, where, there were mirrors on all walls. She stood in front of the mirror and looked at herself, trying to calm her crazy heart, which was thudding in her chest. She wanted to see herself through his eyes and the look today in Sid's eyes said it all.
      Sid didn't knew how or why, but walked towards that cubical. He looked at others and saw them all busy with choosing clothes for Aarohi. He shouldn't be taking these steps. But he had no control over himself today. He just couldn't stop himself.
     Sana was about to move out of the cubical, but stopped when she saw Sid behind her. Their eyes met through the mirror. They stood there drinking each other through their eyes. Sana then turned around and took a step towards him. They were standing only a few inches away looking into each others eyes. Sana felt Sid's warm breath on her face. Sid then lifted his hand and cupped her cheek. She pressed her cheek in his palm and closed her eyes. Sid let out a sharp breath and so Sana opened her eyes to look at him.
Sid: Kya karu mai, tera Shona?? Kya karu mai.....