dear diary
we had
fun in the water
spleeshin n splooshin like bros do, y'know
while he used soap to clean himself
I'll just shower when i get home
of course he kept his distance, which was nice but
well
he didn't have to
but uh
he answered the question!! not in
the way i wanted to hear ofc
like
him
liking the prince...aka me
but he diiid get a little red so
getting my hopes up
bbut whatever uhm,,
i just
when he becomes my knight i just
wanna do everything with him
like
spend my whole day with him
everyday
only me and him
just being stupid
i know it's a stupid wish and
he'd probably get bored or annoyed after some time but..
he's just
too perfect to just leave him standing there
i wanna talk to him
laugh with him
feel his warm embrace
i just
i fell so hard for this young man and I'm just
not sure how to tell him
ever
if i ever do
though if i do
i hope he
feels the same way
i was daydreaming a bit, just standing there before i heard jae saying he's
gonna get out of the water so i
t
turned around
though when he
turned his back towards me i
i couldn't help it and
took a tiny peek
and just
god his body is
perfect
i mean i really didn't expect someone to just be
the perfect person
overall
i didn't think it was possible
yet there he is
sweet
caring
protective
strong and,,
tall
and
h
he's a grower
hoo boy
well
h
he can't be that big right
OKAY THIS SOUNDS LIKE I'M A SLUT I JUST
my dad told me/srs
since he taught me biology that we know of n such
but well
man growers get
really fuckin big hhuh
i mean matches his height amirite
i looked away again after a few seconds, waiting for him to finish putting his clothes on until i heard him call my name
and
i
i turned around again
oh
my
stars.
that
oh god I'm
turning red
fuck it
god he looks so good in that
the way the shirt frames his arms and chest just makes him look so charming
irresistible
god if i wasnt like this and he knew who i was i
would've dared to
hug him
so hard
he looks so so so so lovely
i just
worded it in a less weird way
..
'jae you look really really handsome, i mean dude i thought you wanted to be his knight, not his husband!! jokes aside, the shirt and pants emphasize the right parts of your body pretty well. if the prince doesn't take you as his knight he's talking mad bullshit.'
knowing i would never decline him as my knight
like please god protect me and just
keep me safe and watch over me
I should stop talking like that hoo boy
jae smiled at that, he seemed a bit surprised, not in a disgusted way though, more like "huh, you of all people saying that" which
is understandable
though i
alologized because i was worried i came off the wrong way
