d
dear diary
he's here
but
I'm
so angry
at my dad
because
he just
took the cleanest looking guy and said that he'd be a PerfEct Fit
and i just
inhaled, my fist clenched
i was ready to just
scream but
calmed down for a second
before just
snapping, of course in a moderate way.
"father, is it not my knight? shouldn't I be able to chose who I want? why not the tallest one? he can see above the crowds! why not him? is it because he doesn't have land? because he's the one that caught my eye. he looks the strongest, seems the most caring and was brave enough to try. and i respect him for that, knowing i could never do something like that. and he's the one i choose. so if you don't accept my choice, i shall let all of these men go. and i will not accept any service from anyone ever again. have you understood me, father?"
he
looked at me, angrily
though i didn't get nervous
he knows that if he hurts me or tries anything he won't have any heir to the throne, since my mother cannot get pregnant anymore ever since she once got sick, but he loves her dearly. he loves me, and he knows how mad I'd be if he married a new woman.
he sighed and just
told me that
it's fine, if i really wanted him then it shall be that way. though it's my fault if he fails at his job, and i know that. jae is my responsibility.
my father left the room, probably heading to his quarters
i inhaled again, congratulating jae for getting the job, of course the others complained but
i really couldn't care less
sure they were handsome, smart, maybe strong but
he's the one that just
he's the guy
he's the one that makes me feel special
after their complaining turned into fighting i
told Jae to cover his ears, which he did and stomped on the ground as hard as i could, losing my elegant way of speaking for a moment, saying, and i quote:
"GET THE FUCK OUT OF THIS CASTLE YOU WORMS. YOU CVNTS ARE NOT WELCOME HERE EVER AGAIN."
jae had a surprised look on his face, which i found adorable, while the others just silently nodded and walked out. i looked up and jae and smiled, asking him if he was alright
he assured me everything was fine, thanking me for giving him the job, i mean, of course i did!!! in reply i just said he deserved it, and told him truthfully that i had
an interest in him. though i said it wasn't in a romantic way - even if that was a big lie - and told him to lean down
which he did, wow he's doing such a good job already
and
as a
just
little congratulation gift i
gave him a kiss on the cheek, holding his other with my hand
god his head is big
which just means there's more to kiss!! :D
