dear diarryy
since it was getting late me and jae decided to part ways for today
he waved goodbye, and i did as well
I watched him walk off for about thirty seconds and then decided i shall also go home
i mean i do wanna sleep early just so i can see him tomorrow just
god the fact I'll see him so early makes me happy
i just wanna hug him so bad he's such a sweetheart..
and just the fact he's COMING HERE
i jjjust
snssnif/pos
maybe I'll tell him how i feel? or who i am? i mean as soon as he's by my side daily I'll have a big problem hiding that I'm
the drunk lunatic
but uh
i got home
Emiliano helped me sneak in again which was
pretty cool of him
and he brought me to the bedroom which was also very very nice of him
i asked him if he could sit on the edge of my bed to talk
of course he agreed which i thanked him for
and i just
started rambling about jae to him
i talk about him alot, mind you
and just
i can't stop thinking about him i think I'll go insane if he doesn't arrive tomorrow
i just want to
give him the job as an excuse to atleast get closer to him
i know that sounds stupid but
you wouldn't blame me if you saw him ever. he's just
perfect
i just
hope one day i can marry him
i know that sounds extreme and childish but i just
i just want to be his
his only
the love of his life
his treasure.
but i should just
relax
things will happen one day, pushing them to happen won't make anything better
buuut I JUST WANNA KISS HIM
AND
ABD SNUGGLE UHHUP
