I CANT STOP FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU

15

We really thought we were going to miss our flight, but we apparently didn't. Jeffrey figured out his phone was off time, which really really seemed stupid to me. He is so cute when he does something stupid I thought, which is true and just by thinking of him made me feel butterflies in my stomach and I blushed like a tomato.
"Is everything okay?" Jeffrey asked. He noticed I was blushing.
"Um, yeah"
"Why are you looking like a tomato?"
"I was just thinking of you" I said not meeting his eyes.
"To be honest... I am always thinking of you" he said, he got close to my face and kissed me. I had to stand on my toes to get to his lips.

We walked to our station there were at least 30 minutes before we had to board.
"Mom, I'm going for a burrito and to the bathroom," Jeffrey said "would you guys like something?"
"Um, no thanks"
I didn't want him to leave me alone with his mom, I didn't know her that well but I guess that's what he had planned; for his mom and I to get to know each other. God.
"Jeffrey loves you a lot," she said, I looked at her "just seeing you guys makes me remember how it is to be young and in love" she said.
"I want you to know that, you are part of our family now"
"This year I've been feeling all alone and with your son, I feel like I don't need anyone else. He cares a lot. No body had done that for me"
"I'm glad we have you" Jeffrey's mom said.

They called us to aboard the plane. Jeffrey and I were sitting together, his mom was sitting on the seat behind.
"So, are you exited?" I asked him.
"Actually, nervous"
"I thought performers wouldn't get nervous, 'cause I mean you do it all the time don't ya?"
"No. We are usually nervous, once I almost threw up before going on stage"
There was a long pause between us. And the flight attendants asked us all to put on our belts and be ready for the flight.

Throughout the flight he was holding my hand, and we listen to music. He fell asleep a couple of hours later. I started reading An Abundance of Katherines by John Green (my favorite author). As always I love whatever he writes, when he writes he seems to get me in a certain way I can't understand, and also there is a quote I really like and it's actually true it says Books are like dumpees, they will always be waiting for you and It made me think if I ever broke up with Jeffrey; which one of us would be the dumper or the dumpee? and which one of us would be waiting for one of us to call? Would I feel like a piece of me is missing?
All this question made me feel like something wrong was going to happen. To us. Maybe my fate was not being able to be with Jeffrey for ever. Everything has a beginning and an end. Even us. I had developed a fear to oblivion. All of this started to give me a headache, so I just fell asleep.

As I was waking my senses up, I felt someone touching my wrist, gently. I opened my eyes wide open and jumped, because I knew Jeffrey was touching my scars.
"You promised me you wouldn't self-harm anymore" he said with disappointment. I didn't reply.
"Tell me, why are you doing this? It really hurts to see you like this" I didn't answer.
"Annabeth, please" he took my wrist and kissed it. He knew I loved it when he kisses me on the wrist.
"They make me stronger"
"How?"
"In many ways you wouldn't understand"
"What do you mean? Do you think I don't know what pain is? Do you think what being alone is like?"
"Stop" I had tears in my eyes.
"What? I care about you!"
"I said stop!" I pulled away and quickly stood up to the bathroom.
"Annabeth, please let me talk to you" Jeffrey knocked on the bathroom door.
"What are you waiting for? Say it!" I felt anger rising inside of me.
"Promise me you won't do anything stupid that will get you to the hospital. Do you remember last time? You almost died! I can't live without you! I do this for me! I'm begging you" Jeffrey said. I started crying. I opened the bathroom door, he also had tears in his eyes; that made me cry even harder.
"It's okay baby" he whispered while he hugged me, his body embracing mine, taking care of my broken pieces and putting them back together with super-glue.
"I'm so sorry for putting you through this. I was just thinking of myself, I'm so selfish. I'm sorry" I said between sobs.
"It's okay baby. I love you to the moon and back. Okay?"
"Okay"

We picked up out bags and headed outside the airport. A taxi picked us up and we asked if he could drive us to the Hilton Hotel.

"I'm going to check us in" Jeffrey's mom said.
"So, what's the schedule for your performance?" I asked Jeffrey. Sometimes I really need to have everything scheduled when I'm out in a vacation or something.
"Well, starting tomorrow I have to rehearse all day, and the next day we are gonna have like a really big rehearsal with everyone that will be performing, I'll be taking pictures with JEMs' and stuff" Jeffrey said.
I remembered the posts his JEMs' had on Instagram, Twitter, tumblr, Vine; Would they hate me if they knew I was Jeffrey's girlfriend? I mean I would be filled with anger to my bones if my tainted love would be taken.
I started to get anxious I started pinching my hand.