I CANT STOP FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU

20 (part 2)

I found a tree outside and sat on the fresh ground. I was hoping no one would find me, I didn't feel like talking or even looking at anyone at all. And then the inevitable happened.
"Annabeth! That you?" Courtney's voice came out behind me "where have you been? Jeffrey has been looking for you for an hour!"
"I don't care" I said.
"Come with me"
"No"
"Why not?"
"I don't want to"
"Did you have a fight with him or something? Cuz you guys were fine"
"I've done enough for him, I just want him to leave me the fuck alone for a while"
"Tell him then" she said.
"Later"
"No, now!"
"Why?"
"Because in this life there's stuff you only get to do only once, and if you don't do it you are going to live your whole life regretting it" her eyes got wider and she was extremely right
"I don't know what to tell him"
"You know exactly what you gotta say" she said and then left right away.

Ten minutes later Jeffrey appeared.
"Where the fuck have you been?" He asked "I got so worried, what if someone came in here and kidnapped you!"
"If my own mother doesn't even talk to me, I don't think a kidnapper would want me"
"Come with me, please"
"No, why would I?"
"Because I love you"
"Are you sure?"
"God why do you think I wouldn't!? I've been in love with you since I first met you! Are you doubting my affection to you? Do you think I don't love you?" He raised his voice.
I could feel the tension between us, raising a little more every time I didn't say a word.
"Why aren't you talking to me?"
Tears started to fill my eyes.
"Annabeth, talk to me!"Jeffrey demanded.
"I don't know what I'm doing" I couldn't look at his eyes so I just closed my eyes.
"I need to go to back to the hotel" I stood up.
"But we just got here"
"I'm going by myself"
"What if you get lost?"
"I know where it is"
"Fine" he said.
I started to walk away and turned around to see if he was looking at me.
That's when the tears burst out of my eyes without a warning.
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When I got to my hotel room I took off all of my clothes. I stood in front of the mirror that was attached to the wall, got my pencil sharpener and got the thing out of the thing and cut, this time it was deeper. It hurt this time, and when it hurts it means that it's real. I stood there watching blood coming out of both of my arms and legs. Tears on my eyes, I felt a piece of my heart had been broken, it was a big part of it.
I turned on the TV and sat on the floor, blood still on my arms, my makeup ruined. I fell asleep.

A Knock knock on my door woke me up.
"Annabeth, hello?"
"Who's that?"
"It's Jeffrey"
"Shit" I said under my breath.
"I want to talk to you, please let me in"
"Wait" I said. I looked for some pants and a long sleeve shirt to cover up my cuts. I hurried to the door and there he was.
"Hey" he smiled.
"Hey" I said and nodded to let him know he was welcomed in.
"So" he sat on the edge of the bed.
"What?"
"I fucked up" he said looking down at the floor.
"No, I did. I was the one who is fucking everything up" I sat on the other edge of the bed.
"I'm sorry" he said, his sea blue eyes still looking at the floor.
"For what? I'm the one messing things up"
"No, I brought you in to this. You had a normal life until I did this"
"A normal life? My dads dead and my mother doesn't care about me" I said. He looked up at me confused.
"I didn't know your dad was dead. I'm so sorry" He said, and laid his soft hand on mine.
"It's fine, I never talk about him anyways"
"I'm so sorry" he said, his eyes turning red and filling with tears.
"I miss him, you know" I said. I realized my eyes were filling with tears too "I miss his hugs, everything, even what I thought was annoying"
Jeffrey put his face on his hands, I could see him shaking a little. Then there were sobs.
"Oh, Jeffrey it's okay" I put my arm around him and he pulled himself on to me.
"No, it's not okay. This is bullshit. He should be here with you. This is not fair" he said between sobs.
I started crying. We both were. He spend the night with me, I washed away his tears every time I saw one on his cheek. I'd kiss his forehead and he'd say he loved me.

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Congrats to Jeffrey, he just graduated, I'm so happy for you!
xo
-D