LUST C.H|| book 1

Tastefully depressed

Chapter 5

It was like no other night if I wanted to bring it up or remember since that night I wouldn't even want to.  Causing me to be in some mad world, I though things were going so good not like any other people say those words "I'm depressed". When going on a "date out", if it was, I'm a fool to think myself I would have a chance with him. Why did I always think true love could change for me? A lifetime to be in someone's life have patience now who's the clown? Me. For gods sake I should've known right in the beginning meeting him in the liquor. But again I got to be grateful he's letting me stay with him away from my toxic family. Still it kept coming back to me what was Bailey going to say? I mean it's not my business she wanted to tell me so bad that triggered Calum to not say a single word.

The next morning I wake up with curtains still covered surprisingly this man cares about my sleep other then any others. Then a creek sound came from the door swinging wide open, I can hear his footsteps being quite and soft. "Hey I know your awake can I turn the lights on?", he cutely says whispering. I had to act like I've been awake the whole time, "yeah sure", he flicks the lights on seeing his towel around his waist, "don't get too comfortable all this isn't for you", he chuckles with a wink. This man really wants me to murder him like I said before "DON'T get to attached or CATCH FEELINGS!" It's way too early to be hearing this how dare he tease me like that! Personally I don't have any experience with boys or any other people in general if this is his way of flirting I'm dead already. You won't see me for a couple months by his voice softens such with a deeper tone switching back and forth. He furrowed his eyes indexing his finger swirling it around as i laugh it off turning around allowing him to have his privacy. "So about last night with Bailey don't get too comfortable with her, not saying you should stop hanging out with her but just don't let her bring you down", "why?, did she do something wrong?", I felt a sudden touch on my shoulder scaring me turning around I see him look at me deeply. "She's something else you don't want to see the bad side of her", this made me questioned myself what she was going to say before we immediately left that place.

Everything is going to confuse me but nothing was going to stop me from getting answers, was he also secretly seeing her?

"Yeah no worries", my voice cracks in and out. He laughs at me making my inner self want to punch him. "Sorry I didn't know it would do that!", my brain is telling me so much things that shouldn't be said out loud enough for him to kick me out very easily. "Do you mind staying here look out over my house?, while I go do some errands with the guys?", I don't know what he's thinking trusting too quickly seeming he took this friendship to the next level of "friend zoned". I mean come on is it that obvious I don't need to explain myself, "oh yeah I won't touch anything I promise", "thank you I'll be back in a bit", he says as he starts leaving the house closing the door behind him he's gone. What am I supposed to do now? Looking around the house won't hurt to get to know this place. What is it like living with Calum? One way finding out by all these photos and album record hanging on these walls.

Between these things in the living room there was a little office combined being beside the kitchen. Let me tell you it was very well organized, he had his computer put away inside a cabinet. He kept his objects and supplies the way it's supposed to be properly placed, I continue walking around seeing what else he had, as I walk out there was an extra room I'm guessing it's off limits to go inside considering how it smelled it's not meant for anyone not to go but Calum. I wanted to know what was inside turning the door noble surprisingly it was open, walking in there were a lot of boxes and pictures. I wasn't about to snoop without his consent knowing I went through his privacy, but something was clicking telling me I should know something in these boxes. It wouldn't hurt to look at one box. I slowly picked a box that had photos, picking one of them up my heart broke. Is this his girlfriend? It clearly tells by the date telling the day she's taken by him. Pretty ironic people still do this, she's very beautiful but why her? Her life had taken too soon how young looked in this picture. There were more to look now it's like hurting to even see how both were so happy together, then there was a note it was crumpled and wrapped up into two folded pieces of paper her name was written on it, this must've been a private letter that Calum decided to keep in case he forgets about her one day. I needed to know what it says The urge to read what it says or whatever was written inside, I  unfold the paper finally seeing what's written: