Pleasure Remains the Same -Helmut Zemo(eventual winterbaron) x Reader

Continued 13

chapter warnings: consensual m/m slapping, light bondage 

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Funny the power of sex. It can strengthen the bond between partners, not only physically but mentally as well. It can make you aware of things about yourself that might have been hidden before and still be so freeing —damn near liberating for some people— when it's experienced in the right way. From hook ups to committed relationships and self exploration, that three letter word in all its forms is such an incredible thing it's no surprise people use it to sell everything from cars to burgers.

Personally, the only regrets you have about sex are the minutes, days, months, and years you wasted using it to keep past relationships alive when you should have let them fade. Oh what you wouldn't give to have that time back. You'd give it all to them. The ones you love now, because what you've made with them transcends the bullshit of your past.

With a content little sigh you let your head rest on the back of the low sofa in the den as you watch Bucky come strolling in.

You might have wasted time and sex on some shitty relationships, but there was a lot of fun tossed in the mix too. You remember nights spent in Madripoor with a beautiful black haired woman who made you laugh as much as she made you come, and the six foot five blonde man from off island who you'd climbed like a tree. Still, it's indescribable when compared to what you feel with someone or, should you say, someones when you're in love.

Bucky yawns and leans down to reach for the remote on the couch beside you, pausing to kiss your temple, and you see the way his eyes give that extra little sparkle when you look into them. "Have you seen Helmut?" He asks.

"No." You drop your magazine to your lap for a second. "Not since this morning."

"He didn't say anything to you on his way out of the bedroom?"

You smile knowing why he's asking, why those little worry lines are so deep today "No.You okay?" He called him Helmut, he really is worried.

He shakes the thoughts racing through his head and looks down at you "Oh, yeah. Yeah I'm fine." He smiles and gives your cheek a little pinch.

In spite of this morning, you're both feel it openly now. How things, while very much the same as they have been since coming aboard are just ever so slightly different and you can't get enough of watching him bask in the glow of love. Not only has the sex after their beautiful profession brought he and Zemo so much closer together in the short time since Sunday, it's made things for all three of you feel more connected. It's like all Bucky needed was that last switch flicked on and he's come alive. There's such security in every touch, every soft moment and especially the hard— not to mention how he can't stop rubbing up against Zemo like a cat in heat.

Chuckling to yourself you think back to what happened after your long swim the other day and the progression of your relationship in another way.

With Bucky no longer a "virgin" it was so much easier to just disappear for a while and leave them to their own fun. Honestly it'd been really nice to have a little time alone and you'd spent it rejuvenating in the sauna. On your way in to the cedar room however you'd heard them fucking like rabbits on the top deck. Aside from it being obnoxiously sexy, so much so that you paused and considered going up to join— especially when Bucky did that thing, where he bites his lip and smiles and moans all at the same time which you knew just from the sound of his voice—it surprised you to feel so good to hear them. It was like listening an extension of your own feelings; your own love. In the end you still chose to go into the sauna and shut the door for a much needed rest, happy to leave them to it but later, when you all met for lunch, there was a look that passed between you, this sort of understanding; a bond and a connection that no matter what, there was sex and love and the two tied the three of you together as tightly as Zemo's straps and buckles and leather...