Oh Manapenne ! ✅

Another story of my life ❤️ (unrelated to the story)

Hi guys !! I'm back with another story of my life. So, if you don't want to read this, feel free to skip. I'll meet you with a new chapter tomorrow ❤️

For those who stayed, thank you so much. Your messages and words means alot to me 💓

So this part is about my love life.

First of all, I never had a boyfriend in my life. I'm 21 now by the way. I never had a boyfriend but I had a longest crush on a boy. I first saw him at 2010. He is two years older than me. Our family know each other so that's how I met him.

Then for like 4 years I never saw him but he remained as my crush. So 2014 came and I saw him again. This time I was completely in. I was in love with him, but there was a problem.

He is absolutely handsome and tall or like the "perfect guy" and me on other hand, I am not attractive, I know that. I'm a plus size girl, I'm just not attractive. He didn't like me back. He didn't like me but he still talked to me. Being nice I guess ?

So I was still in love you know because I was young and vulnerable. It was my first love. He was so handsome and all the girls fell for him. He had so many girlfriends in those years and none of them was me. I know it was because of my look.

But the thing is, he still talks to me. So I kept in touch and my love kept growing. I was stupid that time. I didn't understand that he was talking to me when he was bored.

There was this one time we planned to meet, I came first to that place, I waited and waited but he never came.
I'm not trying to make him the bad guy but this is what actually happened.

All of my cousins told me to just don't talk to him because he's just playing with my feelings. I didn't listen. I did everything in my power. He never loved me. There are many incidents like this. There was this one time his girlfriend directly body shamed me.

Fast forward to 3 years back, we all went for a vacation. By we I mean my cousins, sisters and him. As soon as the trip started, we all noticed that he was too close with one of my cousin. For information, the cousin of mine knows that I love him. So when they started spending time together, always being close we knew there was something between them. I was completely heartbroken. I just wanted to go back home, throughout the whole trip. It was a beach destination so one day we went for beach sports kinda thing. And him and my cousin, was running around, catching each other , laughing, right in front of me who was broken in to million pieces. He totally ignored me like he never knew me.  Luckily for me, my other cousins kept me cool and everyone was on my side.

I stopped talking to him after that trip. I was just broken. Like can you imagine that situation ? For days ? Without being able to escape ? After a month is so after the vacation, he came text me. I came to know that my cousin ditched him. So now he's coming for me ? Btw, we all stopped talking to the cousin after that. What kind of twisted mind she must've had ?

As I said before, I was stupid. I did talked to him after that. He even had another girlfriend after that. And all this while, I was just his time pass when he was bored. I helped him like so much.

So then, I was done with it, I was totally done. I said to him 'there's no more love left'. I was done. His girlfriend also broke up with him. Now I don't talk to him like I used to. I can't totally avoid him since he's a part of our family but I don't have the feelings anymore. And now he says that he regret his actions. But boy, I don't care !

So guys, if you see those red flags, please just leave them. Please don't be like him. It's not worth it. I spent 10 years loving that guy just for him to reject me for my looks ? Please choose your man wisely ❤️

As of now, I'm not in an idea of getting a boyfriend or getting married. I will just worship Anirudh and Ashaangi which gives me more happiness.
I would love to hear some opinions from you guys !! Love you lots 💗