Living a Lie

Chapter 13: Im so sorry

Monday.
Second period.
Maths.
Really maths?
Eww.
I hate maths with a passion!
Luckily I was sitting with Luke. but he had been acting strange lately but I had no idea why I left it though because Luke's not one to share his problems.
We were in the thankfully getting to the end of class when Luke handed me a note. all class he had been writing on scraps or his workbook and writing on the but scrunched most of them up and put them in his bag.

I cautiously open up the note and as soon as I saw it I thought I was going to throw up.

Dear C.C
I have liked you for a while.
Will you be my girlfriend?

Say yes C.C or you will brake his heart. plus he is the most popular/ hottest guy in the school. but you like Brody!

I quickly scribbled a:
I'm so sorry Luke.

I shot my hand in the air.

"Yes miss harper?" my teacher asked.

"I think I'm gonna be sick" I lied holding my stomach. well technically I wasn't luring cause I wasn't actually gonna vomit but metaphorically I was.

"Ok" she said resuming to text on her old brick phone. I stood up grabbed my bag and flicked the note to Luke. Before he could read it I bolted to the bathroom locked myself in the cubical and sat on the lidded toilet.

"Hey are you ok?" I heared a friendly voice.

"Who is it?" I asked realising that I had been in here for ages and that I was actually crying.

"It's Simone" the voice said.

Relief flooded through me. yeah I hadn't had a real conversation with her but she was friends with Sabine and Luke, she seemed nice. I unlocked the cubical and fell into her arms.

"Hey let it out its ok to cry." she said calmly rubbing my back. this encouraged me and I spilled it all out on her."is this about Luke? I nodded.

"Sorry about your shirt" I said standing back from her.

"It's ok, and I know what happened so you don't need to explain it to me." I gave her a confused glare "he wouldn't shut up about how much he liked you and asked me for some advice as well as Sabine"

"I feel so mean for ditching him like that anyway." I sobbed.

"Hey he's a big boy he can handle it, plus it's probably not a bad thing, I mean a good ol' kick to the ego won't be bad for him" this made me giggle a bit.

The bell for end of period went and I said goodbye to Simone and headed off to recess.

****

The rest of the day was slower than a snail, partly Brody's fault for being away the day I needed him the most. But as soon as I got off the bus I didn't even bother going home, I ran straight to Brody house.

Knock knock

Brad opened the door and let me in telling me that Brody was on his bedroom. I knocked on the door, instantly recognising the song "all of me" by John Legend. it was one of my favourite songs that my friend Julie taught me how to play on the piano (well attempt to play). getting no answer I let myself in. Brody was facing the other way, it looked like he was writing lyrics for a song. Since when does Brody write song lyrics?

I climbed to the other side of the bed where Brody was sitting, I peeked over his shoulder.

"Holy son of a biscuit!!" he screamed whilst jumping.

I cracked up laughing, his face!

"What the hell C.C you scared the crap out of me!"he said trying to calm himself down.

"What was that?"I asked referring to the lyrics.

"Nothing C.C something you shouldn't have know about." I could hear the annoyance dripping from his voice.

"Awe is little B.J mad at me?" I asked scratching under his chin.

He slapped my hand away clearly annoyed. "stop it C.C"

"Aww you love it!"

"Whatever helps you sleep at night."

"So you do love it"

" I never said that!"

"You said whatever helps you sleep at night and knowing I'm right often helps me sleep at night so therefore you love it!"

"Whatever! anyway why are you here?"

"Hmm let me think." I took the opportunity to steel the sheet of paper from him and I ran into the bathroom and locked the door.

"One look,
dark room,
Ment just for you
Time moved too fast you played it back, buttons on a coat lighthearted joke no proof not much but you saw enough small talk she tries coffee at midnight the light reflects the chain on her neck she says look up and your shoulders brush no proof one touch but you felt enough.
You can feel it in the silence
Silence you
You can feel it on the way home
Way home you
You can see it with the lights out
Your in love
True love
Your in love..."
That's when I must have interrupted him.

I opened the door and handed Brody the paper back.

"Aw" I said wiping a fake tear off my "it's so cute!" we kept walking into his room "who's it about?" I teasingly nudged him.

"I'll tell you of you spill why your here"

"Ok" I took in a sharp breath"Luke asked me to be his girlfriend today.."

"He what?" Brody asked standing up "what the hell C.C how can you do this!" he yelled

"This isn't my fault!" I screamed back.

"Haha yeah nice one, of cause this is your fault! you must of made him think that somehow your in love with him. because why would he ask you that if he knew he would get rejected!"

"I'm sorry Brody I didn..."

"Get out!" he screamed

"Let me ex..."

"I said get out!"

I stood up tears streaming down my face. I started walking out to the front door I got down to the side walk.

"C.C wait" he called

I spun around gaining a little hope.

"The song is about Kimmy." with that he turned around and walked back into the house. The tears were like a waterfall. I started to run. I never really liked running but today I loved the way it ran through my hair. I ran and ran. I decided to run to the beach. I crossed at the zebra crossing near my house. it was the perfect time to try out the short cut Charlie was telling me about. I ran into the bush tears in my eyes fogging the way. that's when I realised:

I was lost

In the bush.

I turned my phone onto google maps. but the service in the bush was horrible and took 10 minutes to load I follows the track for about 3 minutes. the screen went black I watched on horror as the little white loading sign came up.

My phone was dead!
I was lost on the bush!
With no food!
And there was only a few minutes of sun left in the day.

I kept walking around until the sun was completely gone looking for the way home. I trie looking for shining street lamps no luck!

My tired eyes were sore and drooping. a large rock a few meters looked inviting I went over to it using my backpack as a pillow. the book from school were so uncomfortable but I couldn't care less I was so tired.

****

I looked around. where was I? I scrolled through my brain the last thing I remember is falling asleep in the bush on the rock.

This was not the bush I was lying in a bed. something clamped to my finger and a needle in my hand.

"Where an i?!" I screamed