𝖬𝖨𝖭𝖲𝖴𝖭𝖦 𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐓𝐒.

[♡]nineteen

My pencil rolled around my tensed up fingers as i fidgeted aggressively with it.
All i could think of was my f*cked up interaction with the supposed love of my life, who i've liked for fourteen freaking years now.
Yep, FOURTEEN.
Since i was FIVE.
Until i was eleven, i never realized that i liked him..
It's not a coincidence that we ended up together through everything.
Same classes in every grade, same high school, same college, even the same classes for college.
And I barely even talk to him, for pete's sake.
But..he's just..
So cute.
But, i happen to sit next to him in every class..
Sometimes, we chat..
Most of the time, i end up stuttering.
This sucks.
Everything sucks.
I hate everything.
"Jisung?"
I felt a tap on my shoulder and immediately snapped out of my trance, looking up at my best friend.
"Thinking about him again?"
"God, you know me so well."
Felix rolled his eyes and scoffed playfully, rolling his fingers through his hair.
"Well, you can't blame me! You had a crush on Changbin for a while, and now you guys are together. That was for ten years, while i'm stuck here being lonely, liking the same guy for FOURTEEN whole years, and i'm friggin nineteen now!! I never thought i'd be this bored at nineteen." I dramatically exclaimed, slapping myself on my face.
"Han fricking Jisung, chill your t*ts. I mean, you and him have been in the same schools and classes for..an eternity. Ever since you started liking him. It can't be a coincidence! The universe has something in store for you, and both of us have no idea what it is."
"Wow, thanks for reciting the information i've been trying to get used to for five years."
I face palmed before the loud bell blared, signalling that it was time for my favorite part of the day.
Freetime.
Felix immediately dragged me out of my seat, causing me to hurriedly grab my backpack and lunchbox, and we headed off to the food court.
I sat down at our usual table, where my other best friend, Seungmin, was already waiting for us at.
"Oh, hey guys!"
"Hi, Seungmin."
"By the way, where the frick is Chan?"
"Oh, he's getting some food for me. I begged him to get me something, because i said i was hungry- every time he said no, i just-"
"Okay, Seungmin, enough of your couple bullsh*t." I blew a raspberry and covered my face with my palms.
"No, no, i actually wanted to hear his story."
"I just kissed him for more seconds."
I groaned loudly, making it sound like a scream.
"Everyone here is freaking taken, and i'm LONELY! I'M SO F*CKING LONELY!! GOD D*MNIT LEE MINHO, WHY CAN'T YOU JUST BE MINE?"
The whole table got silent, while Chan made his way over to the table with Seungmin's food.
"Here you go, bub..wait, why's it so quiet?"
"Did you not just hear that whole screaming fit Jisung just did?" Felix looked at Chan.
"No..actually, i did. But i didn't know it was him."
I couldn't even say anything, i was so embarrassed because i've just blurted out my crush's name out loud and he might've heard me.
Seungmin shook his head, leaning on his boyfriend's muscular shoulder.
"I think it was my fault."
"You think?"
"Yeah."
"Hey, umm..i think he might've heard you, Hannie." Felix exclaimed, with a tone in his voice that sounded worried.
"No f*cking shit, captain obvious." I sniffled, starting to cry of embarrassment.
Seungmin, Chan, and Felix all exchanged worried looks that i could see from the corner of my eye.
"I'm fine. I'm hungry, though. Someone get me food. Please. I f*cking hate everything. I hate Minho. I hate myself. I hate everyone. I hate-"
I felt a tray being shoved at my arms, and i looked down, to see my favorite food.
Bulgogi and spring rolls.
People say i'm weird for liking vietnamese food, but..who could you blame? It's delicious.
"Did you bring the sauce?"
Felix put the sauce down, actually bringing two sauces. I could tell it was him because of his tiny a*s hand.
I finally uncovered my eyes and looked up, being met with a newly joined Changbin and the cuddling couple consisting of Chan and Seungmin.
"Why are you guys staring at me? Is there something on my face?"
"Yes, actually. Your eyes are super puffy."
"That's because i was crying, idiot."

The now-dreaded bell finally rang again, inaudibly telling us to get off of our ass*s and get to class.
For me, i had to go to Digital Arts class. Which, surprisingly, was my favorite class, other than Graphic Arts.
I happily ran into the classroom, greeting my teacher in the process.
But my smile slowly faded, when i realized that my seat was right under the AC.
And it was cold today, so i was freezing.
Shaking in my boots, quite literally.
So i hesitantly sat down, immediately being attacked by the freezing cold air hitting my back.
I started to shiver, feeling like i was in a freezer.
"Are you cold?"
I turned over to face..Minho.
I slowly nodded and he took off his hoodie, handing me it.
I held it in my hands, intently staring at it, and then i looked back at him.
"A-Are you sure? I-I wouldn't w-want you t-to be cold t-too, I wouldn't w-want you t-to-"
"Jisung, it's fine. I have an extra one."
He reached into his backpack and pulled out another hoodie, holding it infront of my face and smiling.
"You can keep that one, if you want. I have another one that's the same kind. Plus, it's just polyester." He winked at me, and went back to paying attention to the teacher.
Did he just..flirt with me?
I put on his hoodie, putting the hood on and tightening it around my head.
This class is gonna be a long class.

I ate a chip from my secret stash of snacks in my backpack, while sitting next to Felix.
"Han, tell me the truth. Who's hoodie is that?!"
"You act like you don't wear your boyfriend's hoodies all the time!"
After saying that sentence, i instantly regretted it and braced myself for the never-ending interrogation of my best friend.
"Oh, so you have a BOYFRIEND?"
"I- NO, THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEANT-"
"C'MON, WHO IS IT? IS IT M-"
"GOD, IT'S MINHO'S HOODIE! HE GAVE IT TO ME DURING DIGITAL ARTS, BECAUSE I SAID I WAS COLD."
I hear footsteps and i looked up to see Seungmin with a pocky in his hand.
"I'm baffled by what i just heard." Seungmin crunched on his pocky with his eyes dramatically wide.
"A-And he winked at me too."
Felix's face automatically went from smug to "oh my god what?"
"Y-You said- he winked at you?? JISU-" Felix's voice went really high, and that's when you can tell that he's actually mad.
"C-Chill..i-it was a one time thing."
"You never know. That's the kind of stuff Chan did for me while we both still had a raging crush on each other."
"God, Seungmin, what did i tell you about the couple bullsh-"
"Okay, Okay, sorry!"

I opened my locker to get my canvas and paintbrushes, but abruptly stopped when i saw a piece of paper fall out.

Meet me at the school rooftop. I have a surprise for you.
Love, Lee M.

I read the last part over and over again, dumbfounded by what i just read. Lee M? Lee Minho? Are you serious?
But nevertheless, i still put my canvas and paintbrush back and closed my locker in a hurry.

When i got up to the school rooftop, there were rose petals everywhere. When i walked on the path to them, i saw a figure.
"Hello?" I called out to the figure. "I'm here now."
The figure turned around, revealing his face.
Lee Minho.
As soon as he turned around, my heart immediately started to race.
"S-So, wh-whats the s-surprise?"
Minho smiled before shaking his head and walking over to me.
"Jisung, i've liked you for a long time now. But..i never got the proper chance to tell you, so i just assumed you didn't feel the same way and tried to move on..but, Jisungie, everytime i see you, my feelings just get stronger. I literally love you to bits, Han Jisung."
I was at a loss for words, i didn't know what to say.
"And, i heard you when you screamed that one time in the food court..but little did you know, i actually was thinking the same thing about you the whole time...don't get me wrong, i'm not a stalker or anything."
"M-Minho.."
"Han Jisung.." He wrapped his arms around my small waist, so our faces were only centimeters apart.
"Can we...can i..can i be yours?" He looked into my eyes lovingly, and he could probably tell that i was hardcore blushing.
"I-I..god, Lee Minho, y-you don't know how much time i've been longing for you to say that to me! U-Um, but..are you sure you can put up with me..? I'm a little annoying and-"
I was instantly shut up by a pair of lips on mine.
It took me a while to react, but i kissed back, pulling Minho's body into mine.
But, before we could do anything else, Minho pulled away.
"We shouldn't get too carried away on our first date..."
"D-Date?"
It's gonna be fun, trying to tell Felix and Seungmin what happened.