Tears of An Angel( Completed)

Chapter 36

Author's Note

In today's CHP There will be Gulf's POV of everything that has happened. Few things were not mentioned in CHP 22,23 ,Where the whole incident had happened. Till date Gulf has never said his part of what he felt or what had happened. So Here's the details. It's needed for everyone to understand. Bit of Angsty and Tearful.

Can Skip if you feel Sad or Bored.

After talking about Chris,all return to their rooms.Hearing about Chris triggered Gulf. It was as if the whole past Life came in front of His Eyes. He felt as if it was Replayed. Each and every suffering was standing in front of him. They were mocking Him for being Weak.It was 3 at night, when suddenly Tae's and Alex's watches started vibrating. Even Tae'sDad called Tae as even His watch was vibrating. Tae and Alex immediately went to Gulf's Room. When opened they saw Gulf whimpering and sweating. He was shivering. He was Crying Hysterically.Mew just couldn't bear it.

Mew," Alex Do something. Please.please Help him. Please. Baby please stop. Please Guys do something."

Tae was trying to get hold of Gulf. But Gulf was just pushing everyone away. Even Tha was not able to grab Him.
Gulf was crying,"Don't touch Me,Don't touch me,please please don't TOUCH Me". He was having a very Bad Nightmare. Even singing songs by Tae, Tha and Mew was not effective. Tae's Shirt was also of no use. Gulf was detaching Himself aggressively from everyone. Alex prepared Sedative but was not able to give him as he was moving too much.

Gulf,"Please let me go. Please let me go. Chris please please please stop let me go.".

For a moment All hands were stopped. All were Blank.Mew who had cast on His Arm used it to grab his head and with other hand took him in his arms.He held Gulf tightly at his Chest and said,"KANA,Kana It's me Massy". Though it was too painful for Mew as His arm was still painful, he put that aside and focused on Gulf.

Mew,"Kana You Know it's Me.Your Massy. You gave me this Nickname after Maxii and Snow. You said since I am their owner it's perfect Massy. I had said it sounds Messy. We had laughed so much, remember.Kana please Calm down. It's Me. Please, please. Love."

Gulf felt different. He felt safe. His mind was known to this touch. He felt warmth. The names Massy ,Kana were known. He felt warm tears at His neck. Someone was kissing His temple but it wasn't disgusting. He was liking it.After a few more minutes Gulf calmed down in Mew's embrace.He was now awake. He saw everyone.

He looked at Tha and said,"Why did you say those Words. Why? Why Me? What Wrong have I done to You?Why? Just Why Me?I knew My call was useless But I just had a small Hope.... I just hoped.....

Gulf started hitting Mew's Arms who had held him and crying. Mew and rest were all in tears.
Mew,"Kana Please. Please stop hurting.please.I beg you. For My sake stop. I love you but I can't take this anymore."

Tha weeping badly said,''I am Sorry. So sorry baby.please please forgive me. Please." Tha even begged him.

Tae had no idea whom to console and how. HE knew Tha was regretting His deed and no words could console Gulf.

Tae wiped his tears,"Cub,I know what happened was terrible.Please Son please for all. Forgive everyone."

Gulf looked sadly at Tae,"You know how it was? They made me Naked. There was one who was licking Me. One grabbed my manhood and put it in His mouth. One was trying to put his in My mouth. It was disgusting......It was as if Thousands of creepy creatures were crawling on Me....I was not able to do anything. My hands were tied. There were 5 of them.They were beating, slapping Me for Not opening My Mouth.They were laughing at Me. Mom do you know what was worse it was My Baby Gulfie MOM for whom I was given a chance to be saved. Yes Mom it was never sold. Chris had kept it with Him all these years.My Baby died in front of Me. My Gulfie..... I couldn't save him. I just couldn't..... Mom when it was lost You promised to Find it and bring it back. But You failed.... We failed..... I failed...... I wished I had died that night....You have Not seen it. But I was made not only to see but asked to taste it. Taste it ...... His Blood was all over my Body. I wished to be Dead.... I want to Die.... My Baby was roasted in front of Me and eaten. It hurts...... No one was there to Help me.... I was Alone. That night I lost My World....You remember Maths teacher. He wanted to have Sex with Me. When I said no He gave me those whips. He said,This Is What I Get For Saying No to Him.He Blamed Me. Chris Blamed Me. You Blamed Me too. Was It all My fault. Tell Me Dad.... Mom.....Mew.... What was My Fault. ... What Wrong Did I Do.....My Birth was It My Fault....Me having Bunny was it My fault.....Saying No to Teacher was it My fault..... Chris getting compared was it My fault..... Asking You to Be a Mother instead of Brother was it My fault......Tell Me what's my fault....... Please Tell Me.Please Tell Me..... please please please....."

No one was able to even breathe. It was stabbing each and every heart beating in that room.No words,No words at all could be formed...

All were frozen. Time had stopped. Only sobs were Heard. Sobs of a Brother. Sobs of Son. Sobs of Father. Sobs of a friend.

No one was able to stop themselves from feeling Worse, Disheartened, Guilty,Regret, Pain,Anger, Dejected, Helpless.

What to do Now. How to Help...

(There are wounds that never show on the body but are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.)

Gulf,"I'VE HAD ENOUGH, I'VE SEEN ENOUGH, I WANT OUT, I WANT IT TO END, I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!Just Let Me Go. Let Me Go.Every Night I used to Feel Empty and Cold, the Loneliness cuts Me and Tortures My Soul."

Mew,"Kana,I know No words are enough. We can only hear your pains but it's You who is bearing them. We can only say sweet words to console but it's you who has to work on them. Kana I won't ask you to Forget everything. But You know whom to Forgive. I know it's hard But just for once look around right now. At this very moment,look at who is crying with you. Who is crying for you.See it for yourself who is Hurt equally like You. Please try and understand Us. All I want is You to Heal, Forgive.I know it's more hard to do then to say but let's Heal together. Let Us Help You to Take Away All These Pains. Let's Draw A New Rainbow over the Past Darkness."

Gulf looked at everyone and took a deep breath," I don't know,What am I supposed to do? I just want to get away from all This. I am tired.I .....I am Just tired"

Tae,"You will Get away from Them.We will Help You. But we also need you to help us,to help yourself. It's Okay for Now ,Cub. You can take as much time You need. The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is for the strong.Chris was Weak hence He couldn't Forgive. But If You also do the Same,then what difference is there between you both.Families are made in the heart. The only time family becomes null is when those ties in the heart are cut. We are Your Family. Don't cut our ties. We are Bonded. It hurts Us equally. Please Cub."

Tha,"Baby I know,I was wrong. I can kneel down Thousands times for your forgiveness. But can you please forgive me Once."

Gulf felt their words. He felt their feelings.He knew they were sorry and also loved Him.
Hence He said,"I......I did Forgive You Mom. But I don't know what to do with......."

Mew,"It's Okay.For Now let's go and face Him. You will know eventually what to do. Just don't force yourself. We all will be there for You. We are with You.Last Time You lost Your World, But today You have gained the Universe.Remember Forgiveness is not about forgetting."

Mew saw Gulf was tired.He asked Alex to give Him sedative. As soon as Meds started kicking in Gulf was feeling drowsy. Mew made Him laid down.

It was indeed the most tiring,terrible night for all.....

Everyone had only one wish,one hope that a new dawn brings a little bit of happiness in their Lives.......