I'M TRYING BUT I DON'T THINK I'LL MAKE IT

I Wish

There's no date here, it happens every fuckin' day.

I cried myself to sleep tonight. Just when I think things are going great, people start ignoring me. Even SHE is ignoring me, it hurts, it hurts the most, especially when she does it. Why don't people just tell me they don't wanna talk, why tf do they act like they fuckin' care and act nice? Just fuckin' drop the act already. They use me, I feel so used everytime. Everyone uses me, nobody gives a fuck about me. People fuckin' suck, they're the most shitty creatures to ever exist, they're all hypocrites. They lie, all the time, it hurts. It hurts so much. Why do the people I consider friends always find new friends, they just use me when they're lonely and then I'm dead to them after they find someone new. I feel like I'm a stone on the side of the road sometimes. I was holding back my tears for a long long time and just when I thought I need to let go, she came into my life unexpectedly, you wanna know who else comes unexpectedly? The devil. And I fell for it, she told me lies, I bought them like I'm going out of stock. I can't hold them back any longer, I need to let go of my tears now, feel them slide down my cheeks and feel the cold air on my skin where my tears have left their traces. They say Humans are social creatures, then I guess I'm not human anymore. I don't wanna be social, I don't believe in it. I feel these sudden extreme emotions all the time but I hide it very well cause I act like I'm a Stoic all the time, but I'm not, I think I'm bipolar. I'm sick of everyone, all of em' are fuckin' hypocrites. They made me cry, they make me cry every fuckin' time, I hate them. I don't like living this way, late night, sad songs and tears. Why tf am I like this? I wish was dead.

~Anonymous