Remember When? // T. Muichiro x m!Reader

Chapter 7 - "Memories."

A/N: Hey !!! I finally have legit good ideas for this book omg I've been blessed with creativity !
[happy in gay]
Anyway ! This chapter won't be triggering at all, just a bit angsty if ykwim. Enjoy <3 !

-

It had been a week since the hug, and they have been avoiding eachother. Zenitsu and Tanjiro caught them holding eachother and told them they looked weird just hugging like that in the middle of the street. Yes, it was true they were getting curious stares from the passerbies, but they didn't care all that much until it was pointed out to them.

They just didn't know how to approach eachother. Muichiro wanted to tell Y/N that he had remembered a lot of things about their childhood together. Sure, a lot of things were foggy, the events were all mixed up and context was missing from certain things he could recall, but it was enough to tell him that they were important to eachother. It hurt him too that he had forgotten his best friend. On the other hand, Y/N realised that his feelings for Muichiro weren't gone like he had suspected. Yes, he came to terms with his gayness, no, he didn't expect his old crush to just hit him like a brick in the face all over again. That's mainly why he would avoid the long-haired boy. He knew that he would start stuttering, blushing, acting weird and nervous and he couldn't stand the thought of the embarrassment he would feel if Muichiro realised, so he avoided him. At lunch they would sit at the table with the others silently staring at eachother and when Muichiro would attempt to reach out to Y/N, he would instead speed up his walking and get lost between the other students. They both felt hopeless, until...

"You guys." Inosuke spoke up, his eyes darting from Y/N to Muichiro. They were sitting at their usual lunch table when that went down. "You have been acting weird the past week. I may not know Y/N all that well, sure, but Muichiro what the hell is wrong with you lately ? Do you two hate eachother or something ? You've been avoiding talking and have just been staring at eachother the past few days until the bell would ring and then Y/N runs away every time faster than Zenitsu. What's going on ?!" He yelled the last part, some people turned their heads to look at him, but minded their business again when they realised it was just Inosuke yelling as per usual. "If you have an issue, you talk it out. Even I know that, jeez !" he said again with a scoff, the two were looking down in embarrassment, everyone else on the table was sweating, because although they had noticed, nobody had the guts to call them out on the situation. "Alrigh. Then, let's talk, Y/N. Come." Muichiro stood up with a determined look, grabbing onto Y/N's wrist and dragging the boy along with him, to the back of the school.

"Look, I don't hate you or anything, I'm just in a tough spot right now. I'm sorry-" Y/N was the first to speak, but he was quickly cut off by his friend's ranting. "Yes. I know you don't hate me, but I really have been needing to talk to you. I've been trying to tell you that I remembered things about you and,, us.. but you've been running away from me this whole time. I don't understand- you say you care for me and then proceed to push me as far away as you possibly can and you won't tell me why. You're always so cryptic, you've always been. Why can't you just trust me ? Were the 7 years we knew eachother for, until I moved away, all in vain ? I know you'd talk to me but you've always been so vague with your answers, it makes my head hurt remembering all the times you told me "it's fine" or "don't worry about it" or "I'm just sad that's all.." because there's clearly more to that ! There's always been, so just this once, trust someone in your goddamn life Y/N ! I couldn't take being kept in the dark about everything and I still can't ! Just talk to me.." Muichiro sighed as his finished. Y/N was just looking at him in shock.

Y/N was in shock by how much Muichiro could remember of him all of a sudden and by his own behaviour. Jesus Christ had he been a dick to the boy. But he wasn't ready to confess his feelings, nothing felt right. He didn't even understand it all that well himself, let alone the fact that Muichiro might as well be straight ! Well. He didn't look like it. At all. But still ! As ridiculous of a thought as it may be, given the latter's looks, it was still a valid concern in his brain. He knew he was just projecting his fear, trauma and internalised homophobia, but he wasn't ready to face that fact yet. He just sighed and gave his friend a sad smile. "I'm sure you're sick of me saying everything is fine. It really isn't, if I'm going to be honest. I suffered a lot after I became lonely, but things have been better lately. Because of you. I'm not ready yet to confront my problems, but I will let you know that I'm struggling, and your support means a lot to me. Thank you for talking to me about this and for remembering. I've been feeling strange things lately and I don't know how to deal with myself, so please bear with me a little longer. I promise I will explain as soon as I feel ready to do so." Y/N said reassuringly, holding the same relieved and sad expression on his face, even after the bell rang. They both got back inside the building and headed to their class. Muichiro didn't push any further, but he could definitely say that he answer he had gotten was the most satisfying unsatisfying response he had ever received in his life, leaving him with just his imagination to create scenarios of what could be going on for Y/N that was so strange and difficult that he could tell no-one about it.

-

A/N: Y/N when it's actually me in a nutshell when he when-