WALLFLOWER

CHAPTER 15

I was numb. I was not understanding what emotion I was feeling. My mind was not processing any information. My brain was not even ready to believe anything, neither about my mom nor about Win. I just stared at the direction where sister Mary vanished, long after she left.

I never hated anything more than the choice given to me today. I really wanted to believe, all these didn't happen and I would have given anything to make all these a nightmare. I wished someone will come and wake me up .... soon. I regretted enduring the past weeks hurdles to meet sister Mary. I regretted even coming here.

I don't know how much time passed, may be hours or may be only minutes but every thing was passing too slow for my liking. It felt it like a living hell. The surroundings didn't even register. When I came around, I was sitting on the mud near my car. I didn't know when I sat down in this dirt. I imagined my mother's face, she will kill me if she sees me sitting on the dirt filled ground. I smiled imagining her face which soon turned to ..... don't know anymore.

Suddenly I felt like I need to escape from here. Don't know where I wanted to go but my mind was screaming inside 'anywhere but here'. I ran to my car and drove off as fast as I could, as if my life depended on this, as if just another minute here will smother me to death.

I drove without any aim till it was night. Music was in maximum volume as I didn't want to think. I was tired, I started getting scared that, I will fall asleep while driving. So, I parked somewhere and fell asleep instantly due to exhaustion. Next time when I came around it was almost dawn. I tried falling back asleep but couldn't do so. All my worries and insecurities were catching up with me again.

There was only one place I wanted to go, my safe haven, back home, back to my mom.

I needed my mom very badly, so I drove to my home.

Win's POV

As days passed I started feeling uneasy. It's been few days I have not seen Bright. But instead of feeling relieved and relaxed, I started feeling agitated and worried. It was as if something is wrong. I could feel my heart hurting but I was sure it's Bright's hurt that is reflecting inside mine. I can't even believe I am going through this again. I really thought I am over this.

I wanted to ask Earth or Film where Bright is but I couldn't make myself to. I felt like if I do that I will be retracing steps back to my past and I really didn't want to go back. I don't want to do anything with my past. I just want to move forward and live a normal life with Pearl. Why is it so difficult for me to find a normal life ... to find peace.

Today I could see that Earth and Film looked more tensed. I saw them in the cafeteria talking about something. I heard Bright's name and I couldn't help but eavesdrop on them.

They are not able to get hold of Bright. Bright is not receiving their calls. I wonder where he went to make his friends so tensed. I really hope it have nothing to do with me. I really hope he doesn't find any thing more. It's been 10 years. Every one is busy with their own life. Every one has moved on. INCLUDING ME.

I know I am convincing myself. I am still stuck there, stuck on that day. Yet I am sure of one thing and that is I don't want to go back, neither to the orphanage nor to Bright's life.

I was so engrossed in the thought that I didn't realize that pearl is already here and is sitting in front of me. I literally jumped out of my skin when she started talking.

"Dad, you are tensed again." I was startled and looked at her with wide eyes. It took me sometime to process that pearl is here.

"Pearl? When did you come?" I asked.
"Some 10 minutes back I guess, but long enough to see you sighing at least 20 times and I think you broke your own record for it." She said with a heavy sigh.