WALLFLOWER

CHAPTER 18

Its been more than a week I have not contacted anyone. My phone is switched off and I didn't even bother to charge it. I know my friends will be worried sick. I wonder whether Win will even notice my absence.

I know my dad is right, I have to face him ... soon. But I don't know how to explain everything to him or what to explain. I don't even know how to face him anymore and I don't even know if I ever can face him. I can't ignore that voice in my head shouting that if I didn't barge into wins life, his life would have been less painful. He was a wallflower but I am sure he was happy in his world, with his mother and in his orphanage. HIS HOME.

My dad made me promise that I won't run away from this, that I will face him and beg him for his forgiveness. But I know it's easier said than done.

I am staying at my sister's place from few days now. I don't want to ever go back to my moms place. I know my mom is alone there now as my dad also moved out but I don't feel any emotion towards her now.

What shocked me is, my mom still doesn't have any remorse. She still thinks what she did is the right thing. I really don't want to go over these things any more. I don't know if I will ever forgive her, but as of now NO.

I cannot delay this anymore I have to go back tomorrow and beg for wins forgiveness by telling him everything.

Yes, I decided to face Win tomorrow.

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It was late in the evening when I reached the hospital. The first face I saw as I entered was Win's. The moment I saw him I realized I am a coward, only thing I wanted was to run away before he sees me. So I did just that. I fled as fast as I could.

I went directly to Earth's room. Film was not there. Earth jumped and came towards me as I was frozen at his door.

"Where the hell were you Bright? How many times I called you? What the f*** happened to your phone?" I could see that Earth is very angry but I know that he is angry because he was scared and concerned ....for me.

That made me breakdown. I cried ... again. This past 2 months, I have cried more than I cried in my whole life but still I had tears left.

"what happened? Why are you crying? Tell something Bright .. please .. you are scaring me."

I could hear his voice breaking but I couldn't even get a word out of my mouth. May be he understood my dilemma, he simply hugged me and I cried on his shoulders. It took me quite some time to control myself and I started telling him everything without breaking our hug. I stopped several times in middle as I was crying more than talking. I told him everything... starting from the incident happened at his orphanage 10 years ago till what happened just now when I saw Win. He was really patient with me. He heard me without interrupting me. I was grateful to have a friend like him in my life.

It was like that how Film found us when she burst into Earth's room after sometime. She was looking scared for some reason.

"Film, what happened?" Earth asked. I felt irritation in his voice.

"You tell me what happened? When did you come Bright?" She asked us looking concerned.

"May be half an hour. What happened Film? You look like you saw a ghost." I said trying to break the tension.

She looked at me and Earth for few minutes before telling

"I saw Win running away from here. He was in tears".

I felt like laughing at my fate. What more can go wrong now. I looked at Earth to see him very pale and frightened. I gave a small smile to him and sighed before getting up and leaving the room. It's time to face the reality, it cannot be delayed further. I am sure Win heard everything.