hurting

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whose heart didn't hurt after hearing so many bad words from our beloved family or friends? whose heart didn't damage to go through it alone?
losing friends and being alone here to go through this test is just too much for me.
I wish I didn't born.
I wish I was a good daughter.
I wish I can bear all tests.
so I can smile and hurt at the same time without anyone knowing.
I  even had the thought just to kill myself and disappear...

But, is it possible?
No..or maybe yes.
I want to die but I'm afraid that I'm gonna regret it soon.
But, I can't take it anymore.

leaving my friends behind before going is the right thing to do right??

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