Revisiting My Past

Chapter 6 - What Really Happened

Felix POV

Sapphira and Kira locked us in here and I could sense Adria's irritation. To calm her down, I tried to offer her food and the response that I got was.

"Eat it yourself. I'm still full."

After an hour, Kira and Sapphira still haven't returned.

"Help!" I heard Adria yell.

"Stop."

"Help please!"

"Stop."

"Help-"

"I said stop. Shut up. This room is soundproof. I helped Sapphira design this whole place and this is soundproof."

"Why is this even soundproof?" she asked angrily.

"Because as gross as this may sound, this is the lover's lane of people who goes and works here."

"You mean this room-" She stopped midsentence and twirled his finger, pertaining to the whole room. "is contaminated?" she continued and shuddered. I didn't need to answer, I just nodded my head for confirmation.

"God, this just makes things worse. Who knows what substances are in here." She said after a few minutes of silence.

"You don't say. Here." I removed my coat and put it on the floor. I patted it to a space beside me. "Sit here. I promise it's clean."

"What are we going to do in here?" She said asking no one, really.

"Well, we could do what they wanted us to do."

"No." She laughed nervously. "Anything BUT that."

"You know, sooner or later-"

"I pick later." She said, cutting my sentence.

"We need to be able to speak about it. We need to be able to stay friends, or not even friends, at least civil people for our friends' sake." I say losing my patience.

"No. I don't want to talk about it or to you even, for that matter."

"Yes, we will, so shut up and let me talk."

"la la la la la la la" she said.

I was so close to losing my mind so I put my hand on the wall behind her and leaned closer to her. She finally shut up and widened her eyes at me.

"W-what are y-you d-doing?" 

"If you don't shut up and listen, I'll come closer." I said nearing my face to her.

Our eyes met the eyes that they have missed and we stayed in that position for a long while. I was about to close the gap between us when she moved her head and turned it to the side.

"Go. Stop staring. I'll listen."

"Before anything else, why didn't you want to listen to me?" I asked her.

"Because it's hard, okay? The remnants of pain and sorrow, I could still handle. But looking at you, talking about this, makes the memories so vivid that I feel like I'm living it all over again. You didn't know how broken I was the day we were over, only Sapphira and Kira. But even they didn't see how lost I was the week after. I cut all my connections with them, despite promising to call them after I get settled in. When I got to Yale, I thought I was finally getting that new start but somehow the past, you in particular still keeps trying to creep into my mind. Every song, every color reminded me of you and that just made me break down again. After a few months, I finally went to class because I have received a letter that indicated my loss of position if I still didn't go to class. I poured out all the pain and sorrow and turned it into hard work. I was so busy trying to achieve all my dreams and make you regret everything that I forgot who I really am. That's where Louis comes in, he didn't just help me through it, but he brought me back. I am so grateful for him or else, I wouldn't have contacted Sapphira and Kira, I wouldn't be here today, Sapphira wouldn't have met Vermont. I wouldn't be the person I am today if it weren't for Louis. That's the reason, alright? Are you happy now?" She said while tears were streaming down her face, ruining her makeup and spreading her mascara throughout her cheeks.

I grabbed a handkerchief and I wiped the tears, trying to compose myself to not cry as well. Seeing her breakdown and now knowing what she had been through, I couldn't stop myself from blaming myself. Blaming me for belittling her insecurities, blaming me for almost killing the person that she was. I almost created a monster; I couldn't help but thank Louis silently in my mind for taking care of her, for seeing her worth even in the darkest paths.

"I am so, so sorry. You don't deserve any of that." I finally spoke up after 10 minutes of immense silence.

"You really should be. You almost broke me." She said looking at me. "You almost destroyed me but somehow, letting you see me break down, even if it wasn't intentional, is the greatest punishment I could've given to you."

"You are correct, and I would let you do it over and over again if it'll mean that you'll somehow forgive me and let me make up to you. Just cry it all out."

"Sapphira and Kira will definitely kill you after they see me in this state of position." She said, making light of the situation.

"Is that a joke? Coming from the great, amazing, beautiful, Adria? I'll be damned."

That statement of mine made her giggle. Even if she tried to hide it, I could still see it in her eyes.

"Stop complimenting me. You don't have to."

"Oh, but I want to." I said smirking at her.

"We're still not okay, you know that, right? It's just desperate times that call for desperate measures. Desperate times mean me going insane."

"Yeah, I know. I'll still slowly makeup to you even if you don't want to and push me away, you know that also, right?"

Our eyes met again and we both knew it was a silent confirmation between the both of us. With that being said, I vow to be able to win back her trust and friendship, if something more comes along the way, who am I to deny?

"So, how about you? Are you ready to tell me your story?" She asked me.