Unexpected Love.

Chapter 4

I told Jaden that I would be busy tonight after I told him everything that had happened after class. He was a little worried and didn't want me to fall for anything Clyde was going to say or do. It took me a little while to reassure him that I was going to be fine and that the minute I was at home and safe I would call him to let him know everything that happened. It always made me happy that I had him as a friend, that he was always by my side no matter what had happened to us. I texted Clyde before the end of the day with my address. I didn't want to do it right away, didn't want him to get his hopes up and wanted him to freak out that I wasn't going to follow along with what ever he and his friends had planned. I saw him looking at me several times before that with a sad expression on his face and it took everything not to just walk up to him and tell him everything.

After I got home I let my parents know I was going out. Letting them assume I was going with Jaden, not wanting them to know anything about Clyde right now. My parents were very over protective and they knew everything Clyde and his friends have done in the past. If I wanted this plan to work my parents can't know about Clyde right now. I waited outside for him and was hoping deep down that he would just not show up. Than I would just go up to bed and sleep, forget everything that has happened in the last couple of days. That didn't happen however, because when I looked up I saw Clyde pulling up in his car.

He waved to me as he parked and I walked around to the passengers side, letting myself in. He smiled over at me and grabbed one of my hands in his before he started the car back up. Looking down at our hands I couldn't help but wish this was all true. That in the end we would end up together and happy. as I shook my head from those thoughts I turned to him.

"So where are you taking me?" I wondered and he smiled at me.

"Just somewhere we can be alone and talk. Get to know each other a little bit." I remained silent as he continue to drive. When I finally looked out the window as we stopped I noticed we were at the pond. It really was amazing at night. The moon shone down from the sky and left a reflection of light in the pond. Clyde got out and walked around to open my door and it took my by surprise. He grabbed my hand and gently pulled me from the car and over to the edge of the pond, sitting us down.

"I am really thankful that you agreed to come out with me tonight Lyndon. I have been fighting with myself over everything I have put you though and didn't think you would do this." He said as he turned to look at me, holding my hand firmly in his. He seemed to be afraid I would take it back and leave at any moment.

"This is all so confusing to me. the last two years you have made a living hell for me and my friend and now you seem to suddenly like me and want to be with me. It's all a little over whelming." I told him the truth of what I was thinking. Some of what I said had to be true to make this work.

"I know. I want to talk to Jaden sometime also. I would like to get him to trust me again so you can trust me too. He is your best friend and I know we have to get along to make us work. He and I used to be friends awhile ago.  People grow up and grow apart so I know it will be hard. It's just. I don't think or rather don't know when I will tell my family and friends about myself. I know this is a lot to ask but if we do decide eventually to be together it would have to be secret for now. I know this is a major step back for what I am trying to do but I can't. I just can't right now." He hung his head down and I saw a tear roll down his cheek. I was shocked to hear he used to be friends with Jaden, my friend never told me this before but I left it alone for now.

I was so confused. he seemed so sincere in everything he was saying. His hand was gently squeezing mine. I took my other hand and placed it slowly onto his chest and could feel his heart beating so fast within. I quickly moved my hand away and looked at him. He seemed so scared, so afraid yet so hopeful. How can someone that looks like that want to play such a cruel joke on someone else. I had to be strong. I knew this was all part of the plan to make me fall and destroy me.

"I don't know what is going to happen between us Clyde. Not right now at least. Let's talk, get to know each other and see what happens from there." I smiled at him and he smiled brightly back. He quickly pulled me into a hug and I could hear him sniff behind my shoulder, making me hug him back.

"How did you do it?" He asked before pulling away "How did you come out to your family?"

"Oh well. My parents always knew. I didn't know that at the time. I sat them down in eighth grade and just came out and told them I was gay. I was scared out of my mind but I needed to get it over with. My mom smiled and my dad was trying not to laugh. I looked between them so confused. My mom told me they knew but was just waiting for me to say something. They hugged me and told me everything would be alright. I know it doesn't always turn out like that for people. So I was lucky. I told Jaden right after we met, he saw the way I was looking at you that day in the hall and how upset I was by the way you acted towards me" I sighed after I was done talking, looking up to see him staring at me.

"I wish I was that brave. My parents are not so understanding when it comes to things like this. My older brother came out right before I met you and they kicked him out. I was forbidden to talk to him again and haven't for two years. It's not for lack of trying, he changed his number and moved away. I have tried to find him but I think he is trying to save me from our parents wrath. I'm so scared to tell them knowing what they would do if I did." He was looking down after that and I couldn't help it. I reached over and lifted his head up, wiping the tears from his eyes, I leaned forward and gave him a small kiss to the lips.

I pulled back and looked into his eyes. He was looking between mine before he leaned forward and kissed me back. It wasn't just a small peck this time either. He pulled me closer with one hand around my waist and another behind my neck. He felt so good, I didn't want to stop. I hated myself for the next part. I slowly took my phone out of my pocket as we continued to kiss and quickly took a picture. Thankfully he didn't notice. I dropped my phone and finally decided to just enjoy what he was giving me. I lost myself in the kiss and heard a small moan come from myself. I quickly pulled away than, getting scared to what this all meant.

"I am so sorry. I got carried away Lyndon." He dropped his head and I just stared at him for a moment.

"Clyde it's alright. I participated in that kiss so please don't regret it." I told him and he smiled up at me. "I'm just hoping this all doesn't turn out to be some sort of dream. I want to trust you Clyde, I really do. I will try to, I promise. Just please don't ever lie to me about anything."

"I will always be honest with you Lyndon, I swear. God I really hope this isn't all a dream either. What are we going to do about school. I know it's harsh but I can't let the guys know. They would almost certainly tell my parents." He told me and the worry in his eyes and voice seems so real.

"It's alright. I understand. We can just meet after school, or sneak away to talk like you have been trying to do these last couple days. We can hang at my house once I explain stuff to my parents." His head snapped to me so fast right then.

"You can't tell your parents about us." He freaked out.

"I will just tell them we are friends. Nothing more. They know what you and your friends have been doing. I can tell them we got stuck on a school thing together and talked through everything. They will be alright with it. Just trust me." I smiled at him. The best place for me to do pictures and get him to do stuff I wanted was my place. I needed to do my part in this to protect myself from his and his friends plans.

"Great. It's getting late. Let me take you home now, but first I want to do this before we go. I know I can't do this outside your house." With that he leaned over and pulled me into another mind blowing kiss. Why does his acting have to be so perfect.