selenophobia [r. lupin.]

thirty-five.

a.n.
oh my god.  hi.  okay.

im finally getting back into my creative outlets after months of school and my relapse.  so much has happened lately and i cannot stop listening to phoebe bridgers to cope.

i promise to get updates out sooner now that school has somewhat slowed down.  midterms are over!  woo!

this chapter is long overdue, i hope y'all enjoy(:

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"I was good at feeling nothing, now I'm hopeless.  What a drag to love you like I do."

***S.D.K.***

    I had to work another double shift the very next day.  Normally, I wouldn't complain because we need as much money that we can get now that we aren't teaching anymore, but I feel like I've barely seen my boyfriend.

    He lay asleep next to me in bed, his bare chest rising and falling with each deep, steady breath.  My head rested on his chest, and my fingertip grazed small figure-eight motions on his abdomen.  I was restless and antsy tonight, except this time I didn't have a good reason to be.

    I wish I was able to help him out more after his transformations.  Usually, I'd have the day off, and I'd be able to spend the next day after a full moon with him so that he wasn't alone when he would recover.  Last night was probably one of his tougher transformations, Venus telling me he literally slept all day.  When he would have his potion, it didn't make the transformations easier, but at least everything else leading up to and coming down from it was.

    When he had his potion.

    I slowly got out of bed so as to not disturb my love out of his slumber, stepping into my fuzzy slippers before padding down the steps to the second floor.  I strode over to the work desk and pulled out a pen and paper, quickly composing a letter to someone I never thought I would speak to again.

Severus,

    I hope this letter finds you well.  My apologies that it was sent to you in the middle of the night, but I cannot sleep until I know that I've tried to help out my lover, so bear with me here.

    I need whatever information you have on the Wolfsbane potion:  the ingredients, how to brew it, the dosage he needs to take and when he needs to take it--anything.  Seeing him suffer hurts me as much as those transformations hurt him, and I just want him to be better. 

I love him, Severus.  I know you would've done the same for Lily if she were in a predicament like this.

Thank you in advance,

Selena Knight

    I hated to bring up his past feelings for Evans, but I had to try to win him over somehow.

I looked out onto the balcony.  Our family owl, Nutmeg, was still in her cage, thank Merlin.  Sliding past the door, I undid the little door, handing her the folded piece of parchment.  "Bring this to Severus Snape at Hogwarts," I whispered as I handed her a little treat as bribery.  "Thanks, Nutmeg."

    She let out a small chirp before moving the letter from her foot to her beak and hopping out of her cage.  Her wings opened, and she flew off into the waning moonlight.