Addicted || H.S.

Chapter 38

June 2017, Virginia - United States

Aurora Evans

2 years later.

I hide from myself, but it's no use. Someday I think I'll find myself, but it won't happen. And you know why, because I'm half lost in you. Because of you, I never have to find my real self. Because that's my biggest fear. I feel like this, half in love, but also so half loved.

That's how Harrys book started. I read it in the air on my way to my hometown, but now two years later I secretly read it everyday. These words, paragraphs and chapters are all meant for me, just me. It makes me feel loved when I read it, even though I shouldn't be reading it anymore.

When i look at you a feeling of relief washes over me.

You saved me from falling deeper into the darkness that i was being held captive in.

I told the moon about you.

I can't focus when thoughts of you are flooding my mind.

These three words are never enough to express even the slightest way ofhow you make me feel.

My heart is full of you, i can hardly call it my own.

I know you were just a chapter in my life but i hoped you would've ended uo being the whole story.

I'll always be here, from the first to the last page, loving you.

While you hated me, i fell in love with every detail of you.

We might not see each other now but maybe someday we can end up being in the same story together.

Suddenly everything becomes better knowing that you exist on this earth with me.

I wish time had a better timing for you and me.

I don't want to have sex with you yet, because you'll feel like the other girls.

Loving you feels like a different kind of pain.

I didn't want to live anymore, and then, at the very last moment, something reached out and caught me in midair. something i define as love. your love.

Your laugh is music to my ears.

That stupid four letter word doesn't even begin to describe what i feel for you .

I still don't know when or what happened when we first met, but suddenly you were a part of me. you made me whole.

I wonder if you listen to the love songs you are obsessed with, you think of me.

You cause the butterflies that make me scream on my motorcycle .

I am yours, all yours, always.

I hate the world until I remember you live in it.

I always look forward to see you.

Sometimes my heart aches because of loving you so much.

I thought your kisses wouldn't feel special after a couple times, but it still feels like the first time
baby.

You've helped me through rough days and you don't even realize.

Your "imperfections", like you call it, are perfect to me.

I feel bad after touching you, because i never know if you liked it.