MY GUARDIAN ANGEL || jk fanfic

chapter 10

jojo's perspective:

today I decided to go to the graveyard. I don't know why but I feel like I should go. there was her name, photos, and flowers kept by her close relatives. I couldn't stop crying. I went there to tell seojin about how I felt sitting near her grave. 

I felt oddly sad, I ran so far ahead of everyone that I am unable to spot anyone behind me now. loneliness washes me over as I ask myself if this is what I really want. while having these random thoughts. I remember me and seojin talking about what we wanted to write on our gravestone. I said jokingly" I'm fine homies" and she said" reincarnating: I'll be right back" and laughed.

I was sitting there for a long time. then I got up and went home. I didn't go to school today. maybe I should ask jimin what happened since I am not close with anyone currently.

[in call]

Jojo: hi jimin! today I was not able to attend school since something came up. can you share the notes of every class?

jimin: sure! I will come to your home now to give it to you. 

Jojo: yeah sure!

hi jimin! sorry to disturb you. I just thought to finish the works now since I don't want the works to get long.

jimin: it's okay! Jojo are you okay? I can tell that you cried so hard by looking at your eyes.

Jojo: you are really good at understanding me. I know it's unfair and annoying, but I'm not the only one living like this. Everyone has a sob story. Everyone has their share of sorrow.I feel like I want to alone.

jimin: being alone is not a weird thing. since we are born alone we all need some time to be alone. maybe you are not healing because you are trying to be who you were before the trauma, that person doesn't exist anymore, because there is a new you trying to be born. we all have the moments we regret in life, nevertheless, we can never turn back time.

[after some time]

Jojo: thanks jimin ah! oh! time flies so fast.*why does it feel like someone is watching us*

jimin: see you in school then. call me whenever you feel like talking about what you feel. I will be your listener. bye for now.

when I came home I was a little relieved after I talked with jimin. sometimes you meet a person and just click. you're comfortable with them and you don't have to pretend to be anyone or anything. I whispered to myself " thanks jimin ah".

as soon as I came, mom said me to go to a convenience store which is near my home. so I went out. while I was walking, I felt like someone was following me but when I turned back there was no one. this is not the first time I feel like this. it happened for a week. but the one who is following feels like helping me. 

when I was about to trip, he hold me, and the other day when I had a problem with high school boys he saved me from them. he helped me with many things but I don't know who is it since he was wearing a black cap and a mask. although he helped me still I got to find who is it. should I just turn and ask who is it?

when I came out of the convenience store, that person was still standing there. he was 10metre away from me. I went near him but he went back as I took one step forward. I asked him if you was gonna help me why do you want to do it hidden?" while making him think, I went closer and pulled out his mask.

jungkook? what are you doing here? 

jungkook: I couldn't help but worry about you. that's why I decided to help you. I am sorry. 

Jojo: why do you do this to me when all I did was make you suffer? I was the one who destroyed our relationship. I am a total mess. why do you want to help when I am the reason you are broke? I am trying my best to not make mistakes and be a good person. I don't know what I am doing. you are not the only one suffering.

he didn't say anything. he just hugged me. 

Jojo: what if I hurt you again? what if you get hurt because of me? the people who were the reason for my happiness always disappear or get hurt or die. why don't you understand that I am doing this for you?

I ran home after taking to jungkook. I know I can't move away from him but why are people around me getting hurt or dying? my dad disappeared when I was at a young age. seojin died all of a sudden but still, I could have saved her. jungkook was hurt and hospitalized because of me.

I want to end this misery. 

jungkook's perspective:

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to love someone doesn't mean that you don't hate them. it means that you can't hate them.

when I was about to go back, Jojo came out. so I went behind her. I did this since I thought someone is causing the problem in her life and things that are happening in her life doesn't seem like a coincidence. 

she ran after I hugged her.

then I went to meet jimin Hyung. I told him what happened

jimin: If someone ever says awful things to you, it means that person is hurting inside. Do not take it to heart, even if it's something your parents said. also, if you give up on waiting, the pain of loss will kill you, that's why you should wait.

I felt relieved after talking to jimin Hyung. then I went home and was in my bed and I was thinking about what jimin Hyung said and then I got suddenly motivated to wait.

I'm good at waiting, even if it is a thousand times but the thing I am most worried about is the fact that one day I may not have to wait for her.

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author's note: I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter.!!