Jaya's POV
Mama called me for her & I to meet at the church to talk but I knew as easy as it sounded it wasn't going to be that easy. Having me & mama in a room together nope. I walked to the church and finally made it to her office I knocked on the door.
Dorinda: Come in.
I came in.
Dorinda: Hey Babygirl.
Mama said with that crack in her voice. By the way she sounded I knew she'd been praying and crying.
She had her bible out and all.
Dorinda: You can sit.
Jaya: Um, actually I can't stay long.
Dorinda: You can't or you don't want to?.
Jaya:.....Um did any mail come to the house for me?.
Dorinda: Yea actually a few things did.
She handed me a hand full of letters and I quickly looked through it but nothing in there was what I need.
Dorinda: You must be looking for that stimulus.
Jaya: I-.
Dorinda: It came 2 weeks ago and I brought it to the state building and they filed it towards my account since I have custody of Jazzlyn. They said since your not trying to get a job 95% of the money you get from the state including WIC and EBT will be for Jaya.
Jaya: I needed that money!.
Dorinda: I don't care what you needed, you have a baby who needs clothes she's growing everyday. She's about to grow out of eating that baby food.
Jaya: I swear you always wanna take matters into your own hands.
I'm grown! Let me handle stuff for a change.
Dorinda: I tried that and what did you do? Leave your baby at the house and after that we haven't seen you in 3 months after that.
Jaya:....I need that money- can you please just give me it. I need that money before the end of the week.
I know you have it.
Dorinda: What could you possibly need $2,000 for?.
I paused and looked the other direction and mama caught on.
Dorinda: I knew you were gaining weight more than usual.
Jaya you don't take care of this first baby you have.
What are you thinking about going out here opening your legs for some nigga without no protection is okay?
You could've caught something-
Jaya: And what do you care?.
Dorinda: Jaya you know I love you.
Jaya: If you cared so much you'd give me $2,000 so I can make an appointment at the clinic.
Dorinda: No You're not gonna flip this.
Jaya: You were just complaining that I don't take care of Jazzlyn, so lemme get rid of this one so I don't have to leave it like I did Jazz.
Dorinda: No.
Jaya: Then why the FUCK am I here DAMN it?.
Dorinda:Now i know i taught you better than to use that language in the Lord's house, fix yourself Jaya, look i think if we get you some help you can be a good mother. We love you to death and-.
Jaya: No. I can't. I don't want to.
I said starting to cry.
I started crying into my hands then mama came over and hugged me.
Jaya: I wanna do better mama....I really do.
Dorinda: We're gonna get you help.
Jaya: No... no one can help me....
I-I gotta go.
