Nikki's POV
It's been a couple days since the whole thing when I fussed at Jaya at the mall, and mommy called me so her and I could talk about whatever.
I picked her up and we drove to a nice little restaurant.
Dorinda: Can I please have a glass of wine.
Waitress: Yes ma'am.
Dorinda: Actually, bring me the entire bottle.
Waitress: Ma'am?.
Dorinda: I'll pay for the entire bottle.
Waitress: Yes ma'am.
Nikki: Mama, since when did you start drinking wine?.
Dorinda: When I had y'all, but now it's so bad I gotta drink the whole bottle cause all of a sudden my 3 daughters who are in their 20s wanna act like y'all in y'all doggone 5s.
I rolled my eyes at her comment.
Dorinda: So, what's going on between you and Jaya?.
Nikki: Mama, why can't we just have a nice lunch and not talk about that drama.
Dorinda: Why do you think I called you to go to lunch?.
Nikki: Cause you wanted to spend some quality time with your oldest daughter.
Dorinda: Nope, to talk.
The waiter brought her bottle and glass of wine and poured her a little before taking our orders and leaving
Dorinda: Just in time now talk.
Nikki: Mama, You're not mad at Jaya for all she has put you through?
Dorinda: I am.
Nikki: So, why are you still letting her come around.
Dorinda: because I believe in chances.
Nikki: She doesn't deserve a chance after everything she's done to hurt you and our entire family.
Dorinda: She was hurt Nikki, and hurt people hurt people.
Nikki: I don't believe that. She's doing to for attention-.
Dorinda: Nikkia, do you ever just stop and think about sitting down and talking to Jaya!.
She said raising my voice.
Dorinda: When I really got to understand what was going on, I'd be running around like a chicken when it's head is cut off.
Dorinda: She told me with proof she was so hurt she turned to drugs, drinking and sex for healing. There was nothing there.
Nothing to help her heal but to make her numb. She felt so judged by this family she never came back and begged. Why do you think she was so astray.
She wanted to be a good mother to Jazzlyn. She wanted to be a good daughter and sister. But she couldn't because we never had an open door for her just because us as Church leaders had to hold an imagine and she thought she didn't belong in the pictures.
We made her feel like that.
I made her feel like that.
You made her feel like that-.
Nikki: But ma-.
Dorinda: I'm talking.
She seen her Bestfriend, the only one who believed and saw good in her. The one who saw potential in her get shot in front of her eyes.
She was the first one after he got shot there with his blood on her hands as he laid there lifeless in minutes.
There was no saving him.
She saw her future in that moment just die.
Lifeless.
Nikki: *stays silent* *feeling guilty.*
Dorinda: How would you react to all that if you were in her shoes?
She was raped for Godsake under all of our noses. She cried for us but we were to blind to see it.
Jaya had the right to turn her back on everyone cause we turned our back in her.
