This chapter includes self harm and rape is mentioned.
Hopes POV
I woke up to Lizzie being in my arms I noticed she has a black eye i start to get concerned about her. She's so pretty when she sleeps. Ugh I really just want to kiss her, but I don't think she is gay.
Lizzie POV
I woke up to hope staring at me.
"Were you just watching me sleep stalker."
" no I'm just admiring your beauty."
" oh." I blush by the word she had said
Josies comes over and pushes Lizzie out the way and she falls off the couch. She moves over to the other couch. But someone else already has it she just sits on the floor fidgeting with he fingers.
" I heard that she got beat by her father until she was senseless."
Hope heard and felt Lizzies heart breaking.
" sorry jo i gotta go. Hope sits by Lizzie and puts her hands in my hands.
" I'm here Calm down."
Lizzie holds onto hopes hand tight.
" Liz you need to stick up For Yourself."
I'm at the point to just cut myself...
" hey Liz what was your past like."
" my ex girlfriends used to rape me."
" oh my goodness I'm so sorry."
" it's not your fault hope."
Hope pulls Lizzie into a quick side hug. They both smile at eachother.
After class
Lizzies POV
I don't see the point do me being in this world anymore. I cut my arms and then my thighs, and finally my legs. It doesn't hurt anymore.
Hopes POV
After I heard the Lizzies ex gf rapped her and het family hating her I felt so bad that my heart was breaking for her.
If we ever dated would never do such thing to her.
I need to go tell lizzie how I feel I can't just keep it in forever I just need to get it off my chest. I head to Lizzies door until I heard an angelic voice singing a insecure song.
Nobody's POV
Shut up, count your calories.
I never looked good in mom jeans
Wish I was like you.
Green eyed, brunette. Perfect body
Maybe I should try harder
You should lower your expectations
I'm no quick-curl Barbie
I was never cut out for prom queen
If I get more pretty do you think she will like me
Dissect my insecurities
I'm defect surgical project
It's getting hard to breathe
There's plastic wrap in my cheeks
Maybe I should try harder
You should lower your beauty standards.
I'm no quick-curl Barbie
I was never cut out for prom queen.
If I'm pretty, will you like me
They say " beauty makes girls happy."
I've been starving myself
Carving skin until my bones are showing
Teach me how to be okay
I don't wanna downplay my emotions.
They say beauty is pain
You'll be happy if you look a certain way.
I wanna be ok
I wanna be ok
Hopes POV
I start crying, I can't believe this person feels this way. After a while of thinking who it is I then realized that it was Lizzie. I don't how I knew but I just knew. I knocked on the door.
And I heard Lizzie say something.
" who is it?"
" it's hope."
" come in."
I saw that Lizzie had tears coming down her eyes. I was heart broken.
" I heard you singing Liz."
" Wait what."
" yeah and I didn't know you felt that way."
Lizzie starts crying in hopes shoulder.
" shhh Liz I'm here let it all out."
1 hour later
Nobody's POV
Lizzie sat up and she didn't make eye contact with hope.
" Liz who were you talking about in that song."
Lizzie sniffles.
" you hope it was about you."
" Lizzie I like you too but who was that song dedicated too."
" my family."
" oh."
Hope grabs Lizzies chin and makes her look at her. She wipes here tears.
" don't cry princess."
Hope cups Lizzies face. They makes eye contact. The tension that was between the two was too hard to explain how strong it was.
Hope pulls Lizzie into a kiss. Which then turned into a passionate make out. They pull away and hug.
