forgive me. dotae ✔️

5

part 5- continuation from part 4

"doyoung-ah I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I couldn't take the g-guilt anymore, I tried-"

taeyong's sobs were cut off, as he tried to cling onto the now frozen doyoung.

"n-no" doyoung mumbled to himself, unable to believe him, not willing to believe him. At that point, his heart completely broke into two, not even the worsening gut-wrenching cries from taeyong could affect him anymore, too consumed in the shock of his lover's infidelity.

taeyong felt the hands holding him loosen as they slowly unwrapped themselves from around him, his voice cracked as he pleaded with doyoung desperately to stay.

in the most heart breaking moment, all he could do was watch through his blurry tear-filled eyes, as his lover stood up shakily and pushed his way into the crowd, away from him, only able to stutter with surprising clarity considering his broken state: "forgive me"

-

it's been three days since doyoung had left. he stayed away from the company building, from the dorms, from the members, managers and friends, stayed away from his love.

the past three days have been horrendous to say the least, filled with confusion, pain and fresh heartbreak every time he was reminded of those few words that broke him beyond comprehension.

the week after sticker promotions were given to them as a break, partially due to what had happened between the leader and him, and also due to the shared exhaustion of the group members having to watch this whole saga unfold.

Everyday was torture, even though he had decided to stay at his mom's place for the entire three days, unwilling and unable to bring himself back to the dorms in fear of running into a certain somebody.

every night, he fell asleep on a tear-soaked pillowcase, every fibre of his being lomging so desperately for the non-existent comfort and warmth, despite his heart hurting, he couldn't stop himself from longing to be in his lover's arms again.

the day he had crashed into his mother's house, he had sobbed achingly while his mom whispered comfortingly to him, as he cried all of his worries, heartbreak and emotions out.

ever since that day he had felt a little better but still thought of the leader every second of every day only wishing that things could be different.

one day, after waking up and changing his yet again tear soaked pillowcase from crying himself to sleep, he found his mother sitting by the kitchen counter staring at her phone screen worriedly.

as she saw her son with puffy eyes walking into the kitchen, she sat him down, unsure how to break the news to him.

confused and groggy from just waking up, doyoung could immediately process the article that his mother had placed in front of him gently, only looking up to see her looking at him sadly.

"Hello. This is SM ENTERTAINMENT.

Firstly, we would like to apologise for the concern shown towards our artist LEE TAEYONG from NCT.

We are sad to announce that taeyong would be taking an extended hiatus due to anxiety and stress caused by a personal issue. The artist wishes to express his thanks for nctzens all around the world for showing their concern and love for the group so far.

We thank you for your concern and kindly ask that you will continue to support him and the group despite him being absent from group activities for the time being.

Thank you for understanding."

doyoung stared at the article in disbelief, as tears started to make it's way back onto his face, something that was a common occurrence these few days.