No time to die | Harry James Potter ¹

LVII

The room was quiet. Leo was licking his lip before looking up at her.

"You know. I loved you, but you're trying too hard. I'm trying to be smart but you're just making me- you're making me lose myself" He said quietly, the others watched as Y/n let her Bag fall.

"I am trying too hard? You are like my addiction Leo Lovegood. Why do you think I am doing this? For my own good?" "apparently, because you seem to be hurting us all with it" Leo said tears in his eyes appearing.

Y/n turned around, tears pouring out of her eyes as she stood face to face to him, their noses almost touching as she whispered "if it weren't for you, I would be dead long by now" making Leo furrow his eyebrows as he watched her in confusion.

"You wouldn't mean-" he asked her and she looked down, sniffling.

"I mean it, so- having you all tell me that I am only doing this for my good when I am trying to protect you all from what I'm feeling right now is making me think you don't love me anymore" she said quietly, Leo shook his head "no- I mean- I do but- why didn't you tell us" Leo asked, everyone, watched them.

"Do you think somebody would believe a 17-year-old girl? You have a child on the way, which I'm sure will have the greatest love from you ever possible, Hermione has to be the brains of it all because none of us manages to be, Draco is trying to keep us all hidden and making sure we have food provided, Harry has to carry the weight of potentially saving the whole wizarding world, and Ron. Ron always had to deal with being seen as Harry Potters dumb friend, making sure to keep us entertained. And you're wondering why I didn't tell any of you that I have been having these thoughts since my fourth year."

Y/n picked up the bag and pushed past Leo "Y/n-" Hermione shouted running after her.

"Please. Listen to me. Don't go, you can't deal with this all alone. This necklace is destroying you" she said. "Really? As if I haven't noticed? I don't want your pity, I want to feel alright. I know this necklace is tearing me apart, but I'm getting used to it. Don't tell me you guys wanted to wear this too? Should I tell you how it feels to wear this?!" Y/n yelled.

"It feels as if you're always alone, and there's only this one voice in your head which makes no sense- and It tells you to do it. It tells you to do all your deepest and darkest thoughts and to let it all out, and then your thoughts are empty- and some days you're just wondering if the only way to get rid of this is to fucking burn yourself along with it!" Y/n yelled against the wind crying.

Her other friends were long stood behind Hermione listening.

'Well, maybe that's the answer' the voice in her head said. "Y/n. Listen to me, you may think that you'll handle this alone. But the last time you said that we were in the Malfoy manor and all I could hear were your screams. On that day I promised myself to never let you go through any of this alone again" Draco told her, Y/n's eyes watching every move he made.

"Any of this?" she asked and he nodded "any of this," he told her.

Y/n looked down. "Im hearing voices. And if I'm telling you what they say, do you think you'd still say that?" She asked her cousin. Draco gave a quick answer "always." Y/n looked up at him, her tear-streaked face glistening in the night light. A sob escaped her lips as Draco cradled her in his arms.

"I don't want to die, I don't want to" she sobbed into his chest. Draco shook his head "I won't let you."

The others watched, Draco nodding at them to go inside and prepare the bed for Y/n.

"But I will" Y/n sobbed looking up at Draco "you won't. We're your family, and we will make sure you won't die," he told her softly, making her press her face in his chest once again as she cried.

"I want It gone" she exclaimed, her voice was a whisper. "Then we'll get rid of it" Draco said confidently, pressing a kiss against her head.

"Tomorrow?" "tomorrow."

And as they were unaware of the terror slowly beginning, they were in their own world. Which was soon to cave in.