Friends with Benefits

Chapter 2

We're constantly sending eachother snaps back and forth. We're talking about useless things, but I'm having fun anyways.

At times like this, I can't help but feel sad that it's the weekend again. I like being at school, being around Ryan makes me feel alive. I'm always having fun with him, even when I'm supposed to pay attention to the teacher.

It's always exciting to find out what a new day is going to bring. But for now, I guess Snapchat will have to do.

I'm already in bed, fully undressed, because I like it better to sleep naked. I'm sending snaps to him in which he can obviously see that I'm naked, but he can't really see any inapropriate things.

I've been thinking about asking this question forever and now I feel like I'm ready to just go for it.

"You know what I really want right now?" is what I ask to set the mood. He answers with: "I need you to be very honest with me. What exactly do you want from me?"

At school, we had talked about friends with benefits several times. He would always say that he wanted a special friend, because he doesn't have time for an actual relationship. He just wants the perks of a girlfriend without actually having to put effort into it. I had agreed with that several times, so this is the moment where I finally speak my truth.

"You want a special friend, so do I. It couldn't be easier than this. Let's just do this together." I have second thoughts immediatly after pressing the send button, but even though I can... I will not take it back.

As I'm waiting for his answer, many scenarios are playing in my head. I'm an overthinker and in moments like these, that is absolutely not a good thing.

"Yeah, maybe we should do that. Although I have some doubts... You know I'm still a virgin and I don't know if I'm ready to go there yet." His answer shocks me, because I didn't really think he'd agree to this. I send him one last message saying he should sleep on it and I put my phone aside to go to bed.