~\\my loud blonde//~ {a erasermic story}

chapter 11

Hi it's meh and Im not gonna talk to much just enjoy please!

Aizawas pov

Nezu walked off and I stayed with hizashi...

'Please wake up hizashi I can't live without you'

...

I didn't sleep.

3 days later

Hizashi hasn't woken up. I haven't slept in 3 almost 4 days and have only drank water and energy drinks.

I've shed (self harm)alot ig.

Nobody checks in on us anymore, nezu has moved me and hizashi into a seperate room so other can see recovery girl.

I sighed and broke down  yet again.

'PLEASE WAKE UP I CAN'T LOSE YOU!'

'i-i can't'

...

I look terrible but I don't fucking care.

Then I saw hizashis hand move. 'S-shouta'

'HIZASHI!' I hugged him tightly.

'How long was I out for..'

'Almost 4 days..'

Hizashi was in shock.

I awnsered some of hizashis questions.

'Sho.. Have you left this room or ate/slept? '

'No'

Hizashi looked serious and mad. I was scared.

'Shouta aizawa. Sleep. Now.'

Before I could respond hizashi pulled me onto the bed and layed me on his chest/lap.

He played with my hair,he knew it makes me sleepy.

I was knocked out within minutes, fucking hell hizashi.

When I woke up I was in a different place. I couldn't see hizashi anywhere.

'h-hizashi?'

No response.

'Hizashi?'

I got up and realized I was in hizashis house. I walked into the kitchen and saw hizashi with 2 woman who had to be in their mid thirties.

'Zashi? Who are these people?' I said tierdly making it sound soft.

Hizashi smiled. 'They are my moms sho'

'Oh *yawn* ok'

Hizashi laughed slightly and kissed me on my forehead. 'Your so cute when your tierd sho'

'Whatever zashi'

I realized my birthday was soon.  It's the 4th of November and my birthday is on the 8th.

Hizashis moms introduced themselves and hizashi started talking to his moms, I kinda felt left out but it's fine.

Its been a hour and I'm still being ignored.

I walk of and lock myself in the bathroom.

Self harm starts here

I cut my arms and stuff...

1..2..3..4..5...6..7..8...9....10....11...12...13...14...15...16....17...18...19.. 20......

A bit of time passed

41.

I realized how much I was bleeding.

SHIT

FUCK

I pulled down the hoodie sleeves and rolled down my trousers

Stops here but there is still mention of it✌

I walked out and hizashi was still talking to his moms. I felt jealous for some reason..

I wanted attention.. He hasn't aknolaged me in almost 2 hours..

I felt sad, I do to now why.

Suddenly I accidentally hit my arm on something.

I screamed in pain.

Hizashi and his moms looked at me.

Shit.

Hizashi walked over to me.

'Sho.'

'So now you aknolage me. All it took was for me to hurt myself'

Hizashi's look turned serious. 'Sho. Arms and legs now.'

'No.'

This turned into us fighting.. Serious fighting

'I NOT FUCKING SHOWING YOU'

'YOUR JUST A TRANS FREAK WHO WAS R-PED BY HIS ON FATHER!'

Then it happened.. He hit me. I fell backwards and onto the floor.

'I-i' I got up and ran off.

I heard hizashis moms shouting at him. I know he didn't mean it but it really hurt..

One of hizashis moms came to me.

'Does he hit you often?'

'No this is the first time and I know he didn't mean it'

She nodded and walked off.

I was in hysterics

I started hyperventilating which turned into a panic attack.

I couldn't breathe.

'H-HIZASI' I screamed while fighting passing out.

Hizashi ran upstairs and to me.

'Sho I'm so so so so- SHO ARE YOU OK!'

'Hey it's ok it's ok'

He hugged me and my breathing because better.

'I-im sorry for shouting I get if you hate me.'

'I could never hate you hizashi'

I climbed onto his lap and hugged him tightly.

'I love you zashi'
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This took forever 😭

Anyways hope you enjoyed please say if you did