Him and I (Our Abrupt Engagement)

Chapter 38

Now you put a happy face
You need someone who's gonna stay
I know you're crushed under the weight
Wanna hold you up

Happy face - Tete Mcrae

DECLAN'S POV

Walking out of my room and down the stairs, everyone looked at me and for the first time this week, I was hit by the effect the night had on all of us.

Kayla smiled at me, "Hey sweetie, I was so worried about you but I am glad you're okay." She patted my shoulder assuarringly.

I looked at Richie who sat down infront of the coffee table but he didn't look good himself. "Hey buddy, come here." He said patting the area next to him. "I know you're beating yourself for everything but it's not your fault. None of us thinks it is."

I felt relieved but a certain part knew the truth, it was my fault. "I will make sure not to." I smiled up at him.

I had moved down here because of Avery and if it wasn't for her, I would have never gotten out of there. Maybe I would be like those women in old literature who would punish themselves by locking themselves up and never leaving their rooms again. I was ready to live as Miss Havisham.

But for Avery, for Mia and for all of these people, I had to do something. I really hoped everything would get back to normal.

I walked out of the house after eating Kayla's breakfast which she insisted I needed. I got in my car and drove down the road to her house.

This whole time, I had learnt one thing about Tiana, She was someone who could bring out the best in me. Everything from the time we met till this day, she had never been one to put up with me unless I made her helpless.

But one thing I knew most of all was that I had never felt attached to anyone before I met her. I liked her so much and I was ready to do anything for her. If she wanted me to leave her, I would. If she wanted the engagement to be put off I would.

I didn't just like her, I loved her. Love is a feeling I had not felt my whole life but this attachment was so special and I would say I love her because I knew it.

I finally pulled up in their driveway but first, I sat in my car. To say I was nervous would be an understatement but this was what I had chosen to do so with that, I walked out of the car and up to the house.

I rang the door bell and waited patiently for the door to open. The door finally opened but I was met with a brunette woman who smiled down at me. "Hey sir, how may I help you?"

She wasn't Tiana's mom but whatif she was her other relative. "I would like to meet Tiana London and I am Declan King."

Her face lit up with some sort of farmiliarity as she told me to head in. "Come in,dear."  She led me to the living room where she told me to sit but I politely declined.

"Oh dear, I might take long just please take a seat." She insisted so I sat anyway. "Do you want a drink or anything?"

"I am fine just water." I smiled at her politely.

Next thing she brought me a glass of water and told me she had to do something quickly. She was sure delaying but I wasn't going to be rude to her since she had been polite the whole time.

After waiting for atleast five minutes, the brunette came back in with an envelope and sat opposite me. "Dear, I am Mrs Jade Garrison but you can call me Jade. I moved in here a few days ago at the request of the London's." She smiled sympathetically at me.

I knew it, she had left. I knew they had moved from several other towns bit I didn't think she would leave me so soon.

"I am sorry but then, I was cleaning my niece's room and saw this." She said handing me the white and yellow- ish envelope. "I am sure it is yours since she left a note attached."

I picked the envelope, not wanting to stay here anymore, I stood up. "I have to go." My voice came out weak but I didn't care.

"It's okay dear. I hope to see you around." And with that, I ran back to my car.

I threw the envelope in the passenger seat and drove off to my safe place.

I pulled up in front of the building, picked the envelope and walked up the stairs to the roof, a few knew this place so I was sure no one would be there.

On the rooftop, I sat on the plastic seat and looked far into the city. The lights during the day were off and the other side was lighter and green.

My mind couldn't help but drift off to the day I came here with Tiana. That night had changed both of us, the night we shared our first real kiss together.

The more I thought into this, I felt tears streaming down my face so I opened the envelope and inside was a small white paper with her messy writing. I smiled at the thought, she had one boyish messy handwriting.

Hey,

I hope you got this but maybe now that you have it, I am miles and miles away.

First off, I am sorry about what happened to your dad. I hope you are getting though I am quite sure you're since you're strong, unlike me.

I wrote this because I have hope in you. When you promised to try for me, I trusted you but even when you broke my trust a part of me still trusts you. I know you will finally come to see me but you will only find this.

First off, thank you for everything, showing me the care I had never gotten elsewhere apart from my family. Thank you for being with me in one of the many phases of life, even though it was under an abrupt engagement, we still met and that itself meant a lot to me.

Thank you for being my first love, ' yes you read that right. The loml.' I love you Declan King Jr. I can't deny this anymore because it is the truth and it will never change. Deep inside, you always hold the place of being my first love.

You made a promise, to try and be better for me but now that I won't be there, you can try and be better for yourself so that may be one day when destiny lets us meet again, we can laugh freely about all of this, at how we were dumb.

But most of all I hope that when that day comes, I can meet a strong and happy man who won't live to dwell on his past on his past anymore.

I love you,
Tiana Aria London.

By the time I finished reading this, tears were streaming down my face but a certain part of me felt relieved.

Selfish as it sounds, I was relieved that she was not mad at me but she had forgiven me.

She was really stronger than she gave herself credit for and with that, I was going to try and move on from all this.

I wiped my tears, stood off the bench left. Left to start afresh but most of all, to learn and forget the past.

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MAJOR A/N (please read)

This is not the end though it kinda looks like one.
We have some more chapters to go.I hope you like how it's going down...

Thanks for reading
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