You're My Soldier (Laurinah)

Chapter 17

Laurens POV

I can't believe this. Camila asking Dinah out on a date? Dinahs my girlfriend. Shes mine. I'm not gonna share her. I may have over reacted when I read Dinahs text but how would someone else react in my position?

I'm depressed, I've been depressed for a while. Dinah came along and changed that. I can smile again, I can laugh again, I can look forward to a new day. I used to wish that I would go to bed and never wake up. I felt that there was no point in living, I'm not happy anymore. I lost all hope. Dinah is my soldier, she's willing to fight for me. She's willing to put her needs aside just so I'll be happy, just so I'll smile again. I just totally flipped my shit at her. I was mad at Camila, and I was mad at myself. It's not like Dinah knew Camila was asking her out on a date, they're best friends. I would never expect my best friend to ask me out on a date either.

I flipped at Dinah and she pissed me off even more. But she was right. It was my fault. Camila would never try and make a move on Dinah if she knew we were dating. Dinah wanted to tell the girls, she wanted to tell the world that I was hers and she was mine. I don't know why I didn't want to tell people. My parents don't even know, all they know is that I met Dinah on the first day of school, and that we became good friends.

I'm scared to tell people, I think im more scared of it being out there then what people will say. Im scared that once it's out there I'm gonna wake up from the best dream I've ever had and be more depressed. I can't imagine a world with out Dinah anymore. She is the reason I keep breathing, she's the reason why im fighting everyday. With out her in my life I Might as well stop breathing because with out her I'm suffocating.

It's 4:00am right now. I can't sleep. This whole thing is rediculious. Dinahs has tried to call me about 50 times, she's also texted me telling me to call her but I never did. I know what I did was wrong, it's not fair to Dinah. I'm being a jelious girlfriend, If it wasn't for Dinah saying it was my fault I'd probably be in her arms right now peacfuly sleeping. I have to get up for school in two hours. I've slept about an hour all night. I decided to plug in my headphones and turn on my music, Forver, and Always by Parachute came on, I closed my eyes hoping to drift to sleep...

It worked.

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"Beep! Beep! "

Great, school. Like I wanna acctually go to school today. No you know what, im skipping.

"Lauren Honey you need to wake up!" My mom half yelled while walking into my room.

"I'm not going to school today." I said while shoving my face in my pillow.

"And why aren't you going to school today?" God she won't leave me alone!

"Because Dinah and I got in a fight and im upset about it!" I was very agrivated now.

"Then you and Dinah should make up. " I threw my pillow to the side and sat up looking at my mom.

"It's not that easy mom."

"No Lauren your wrong, it is that easy." I let out a huge sigh of agrivation.

"Mom, you don't even know the situation."

"Then enlighten me. " Shit, I just gave her an open reason to ask what happened between Dinah and I.

"Dinah and I are dating." I looked for any evidence that what I said wasn't a crime. I can't find anything. Her eyes are wide open and her mouth is propped open a bit.

"Mom? Mom please say something." I stared at her alittle more, waiting for her to process what I just told her. Her mouth slowly shut and turned into a huge smile. I couldn't help but smile back.