You're My Soldier (Laurinah)

Chapter 10

I feel like I've been hit with a bus. Im so tired its like I havn't slept in days yet my mind is running miles. All the images from last night replaying in my head. My arms are burning. I lift my sleeve to find 8 pretty deep cuts down my arm. I can't believe I did this. I havn't done it in such a long time. I went to therapy and group sessions to prevent and stop this. All that work and one night its all gone.

I need some air. I tried to get up when I felt someone next to me. I look down to see the beautiful carmel skinned girl sound alseep. I will never be able to repay her for what she did for me last night. Normani, and Ally have never seen me like that yet Dinah did. Dinah and I have been friends for a week and she's already seen my best and my worst days.

I take a glance at my clock 6:00 am. I thought it was like 4:00 pm I mean Dinah came around like 2:00 so it can't be sunday already can it? I get off of Dinah carefully so I don't wake her. I open my balcony door and feel the humide Miami air hit my face and blows through my hair. The sun is just starting to peak up above the horizon. It's so beautiful. How something that seems so small lights up the entire world at different times. Its like Dinah. Shes just one person. Shes one person in this entire world, and I feel like she's the only person who can acctually make me completely happy, yet she can make me spill everything thats on my mind. She's so special and I can't take that for granite. I feel arms wrap around my waist. It jumped me at first.

"Beautiful right? "I hear the girl who saved me say. I didn't answer her. I had nothing to say. I just wanted to show her how sorry I am for putting her through that.

"Lauren are you okay? " I feel her arms tighten around my waist. I turn around to face her.

"Dinah I'm so sorry. Im sorry that you had to see me like that. Mani, and Ally have never seen me like that and we've been best friends forever. I've literally met you a week ag-" I feel a pair of soft lips crash into mine. It was the most passionate kiss I've ever had. I could feel all her emotions. And man it was the best fucking way to be told to shut up. Once she pulled away she spun me around so I was facing the horizon. She put her arms around me so the rested on the front of my stomach.

"Don't say your sorry. Everybody has bad days, some are worst then others. But the good thing about having a bad day, is that a good day will come, and make you forget all about that day and all the previous ones as well." Dinah wispered in my ear.

Im so lucky to have this girl. I don't known what I did to deserve her but I'm not gonna question it. I'm just enjoy the moments I have with her. This moment right her is probably one of the best moments of my life. This will be burned into my mind and when ever I'm having a bad day im gonna think back on this memory. It's almost impossible to not have a ginormous smile on your face thinking about this memory.

"What do you say about us making some breakfast? I texted Ally, Mani, and Mila to come over." Dinah said whispering in my ear again. I turned around to face her. I gave  her probably the biggest hug you can give anybody.

"Thank you so much Dinah. And can we have pancakes? " She just giggled and grabbed my hand leading me down to the kitchen. 

"Okay I'll get the pancake mix you get everything else." I said grabbing the mix out of the cubbord. Dinah would mix and put on the cooker. I did the flipping. I was about to flip somemore when two hands snaked around my body from behind.

"Your beautiful" She wisperd into my ear. I just about melted into her embrace.

"Dinah I'm trying to cook." Is all I said. It's not like I can say thanks, because I don't believe her. I want to, I really do, but I just can't.

"Lauren, your beautiful. I get that you don't believe me. It's gonna take time for you to believe me, but I'm not going anywhere. I'm staying right here with you. I'm gonna be here when you need a sholder to cry on, or you need someone to punch, or you just want a friend. I'm not leaving you! Hell you want somebody to love? Well I'll be more than happy to be that person. Your beautiful and I will tell you every single day until I die." Dinah said. I could hear the tears forming, her voice was getting raspy and fading out at some points. I turned around to meet her brown eyes glossed over with tears.