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CHAPTER 2

Author's pov

Raavi kept looking at the night sky, she has came to the narayan house as she didn't wanted to be anywhere near shiva or disha..
No she hasn't left the pandya house yet , And she won't unless her dhara di is fine..
But she just couldn't get the image of dressed shiva and the fact that he has changed himself for disha out of her system..

She felt like crying but now even her tears have dried and she was feeling extremely tired because of all these..
Supporting her head on the swing she kept looking at the sky, sometimes wishing how good it would have been if they would have Not meet sneha that day..
How good it would have been if things were good between them ,just like during the time of their reception where Shiva's eyes use to always look at her , where they were fighting less and trying to understand each other More..
But she knew it was never going back to how it was , things were damages ,their relationship was damaged and no one else was go be blamed for it,other then they themselfs..
It was because of her silence they were at this stage if their relationship, it was because of Shiva's anger and accusation that the matter went till divorce..
And now it was More worst since the entry of a third person..
Since she has went back to the pandya house she tried to keep her emotions at a bay..
She didn't knew what Exactly she felt for shiva , or maybe she didn't wanted to Name it but she knew she wanted to be with him and yet everything was pushing her away from him..
Wasn't it a tragedy that when she wanted to be away from him everything pushed her towards him and now when she wants to be with him everything was pushing her away from him..
They were still bounded in a marriage , and yet they had this huge distance between them..

Raavi was still in her thoughts when she heard someone speaking..

Raavi's pov

I was in my thought when I heard Anita di's voice

(Author's note : For me the fact that Anita is still drooling over gaumbi has no logic legit no logic.. The makers could have made Anita's character much better but they didn.. But I don't want to do that Anita is the one for me who can understand raavi and make her understand things so I am not making her a negative character )

Anita - Yaha kya kr rhi ha raavi ? Tu pandya house nhi gai ?

I looked at her and nodded in a no

Anita - SB theek ha ? Tu theek ha ?

Raavi - haa di main theek hu.. Mujhe kya hoga

I heard her sign , while I continued to look at the sky..
We both were silent for a while until di spoke again

Anita - janti ha raavi , hum insaano ko aadat hoti ha apne dard ko chupane ki , apne aap ko theek naa hote hue bhi theek batane ki.. Hum chupana bht aache se jante ha apna pyaar apni feeling yaha tk ki apna dard bhi...

Hearing her words I don't know why my tears started streaming down my eyes...

Hearing my sobs I felt her strocking my hair and within seconds I crushed into her arms crying loudly..

Raavi - mujhse nhi ho rha ha Anita di aab , main nhi bardast kr paa rhi hu ye SB aab. Aisa lg rha ha jaise andar kuch bacha hi nhi ha mere SB khtam sa ho gya ha..
Kyu di kyu ? Kyu mere saath ho rha ha ye SB
Pehle dev ne dard diya , Phir shiva ne kyu di ?
Kyu mujhse chodna itna asan ha sbke liye?
Bachpan se leke aaj tk shiva ne mujhse ladai ki ha, main bhi usse ladti thi pr hamari ladai hamesha silli hoti thi , shaadi ke baad bhi hum ladte the pr itni takleef mujhe kabhi nhi hui thi..
Usne mujhe tod diya ha Anita di tod diya ha..
Aab main aur nhi rona cha rhi hu please
Please kuch kro di mera te dard khatam kro..
Main nhi jee paungi aise..
Har din suman kaki ka disha ke saath uska naam jodna , usse ghar ki bahu khena ,usse wo haq dena jo mere ha..
Shiva ko har din samne dekh ke bhi usse baat na krna , rishte main bandhe hue hone ke baad bhi usse koi rishta naa hona , usse har din kisi aur ke saath dekhna nhi ho paiyega mujhse..
Main kya karu ?