Safeword ⛓

"Hail hydra"

It had been two weeks.

Y/N had been gone for two weeks. The team didn't stop searching for her but reality started to set in and they questioned whether they were going to get y/n back. Bucky felt for her the most save Loki. The team knew that it was Hydra who took y/n and Bucky knew the horrors Hydra would inflict on anyone they thought was withholding information from them. He knew that Hydra didn't simply kill. No. They were too evil to grant the sweet release of death. Most of the deaths in Hydras care were accidental. If there was any way they could administer more agony, more torment, more discomfort, they'd do it and Bucky knew this more than anyone. He'd sometimes find himself wishing y/n were dead. He knew this was wrong but the thought of her having to endure what he did was a fate worse than death.

All the progress Loki had made whilst technically being an avenger and being with her, Y/N, Sweet sweet y/n,His love, was quickly wasted when he unleashed his wrath on any enemy he could find. He'd dedicated his life to it. He would infiltrate Hydra bases alone and tear them apart in search for y/n. He'd kill everyone in his path. The deaths Loki had caused in 2012 was nothing compared to what he had done now. When back in the solitary confinement of his room, Loki would run his blood stained hands under his tap and think of her. He prayed she was alive. He wanted nothing more than to just hold her again. Stroke her hair. Comfort her. Tell her how pretty she was. Whilst washing the crimson from his hair, he'd think about whether or not y/n would forgive him. Loki knew that not everyone he had killed had been responsible for your demise. There were innocents caught in the crossfire. Loki was driven by anguish, guilt, revenge and love. He had to get her back.

"The wild dogs cry out in the night"

Y/N knew she was nearing the end. She couldn't take anymore of this. Waiting. Day after day she'd pray that today was the day she'd be rescued, reunited, held lovingly, but no, that day never came and y/n knew it never would. So she sang, she used the last of her energy to sing. It was slightly above a whisper and hoarse but she sang nonetheless.

"As they grow restless, longing for some solitary company"

"Someone shut that whore up" one of the guards shouted signalling one of his lessers to beat her into silence.

Y/N's eyes used to widen at the threats and her heart rate would soar at the sight of someone coming to strike her but not anymore. This y/n was subdued. Her eyes would water at the feeling of someone hitting her fragile frame but that was it. No point in screaming or shouting or fighting anymore. All she could to was hope for death. And sing.

"I know that I must do what's right"

"I said SHUT U—"

"I'll take it from here" y/n heard another voice say.
Opening her eyes, y/n was greeted by someone she hadn't seen before. This time it was a woman.

"Leave us" the woman said to the other guard

"Hail Hydra" he saluted before exiting

"What do you want from me?" Y/n croaked

"You know what we want. We want the stone"

"I don't know what you're talking about"

SLAP

"YES YOU DO!"

The woman quickly changed from anger back to her calm demeanour.

"Have they shown you what your lover has been up to?"

"Loki" y/n said with a bit more energy in her voice

"I guess they haven't, don't worry, I'll show you"

The woman then turned a projector on facing it to the wall in front of y/n. As soon as she saw him, she began to weep. She missed him so much. She missed feeling safe. She then saw Loki slaughtering countless people on the screen in front her her. Some were innocents. It was clear that some were just caught in the crossfire. Y/n's cheeks burned at the feeling of her tears streaming down them as she gave a heart wrenching cry at the monster her Loki had become. What hurt her the most was the fact that she knew he would carry on. He wouldn't stop until he found her even if it meant killing everyone on earth. He wouldn't stop.
Seeing the distress y/n was in, the woman turned to face her

"You could stop it. You are the only one that has the power to end this. Are you really going to let more lose their life's at the hands of him."

"Let me go" y/n pleaded tears falling to the ground

"Give me what I want"

"Let me go" she begged more desperately as the screams of Loki's victims filled the room.

"You can stop this y/n just focus"

"I can't! I don't know what you want me to do. I don't know what this stone you speak of is. I don't have it. I've never had it. I don't know what it is"

"Yes you do y/n, think. How did you, one person manage to defeat five super soldiers all attacking you at once ambushing you without any weapons?"

"They were not super soldiers, they were amateures. They came at me one by one and I defended myself using my heels and my skills"

"You're wrong y/n think about it really focus. They were the strongest super soldiers we've ever trained. How did you manage to take them down?"

"I TOLD YOU!"

"No y/n. That's not how it went"

Back at the compound, the team had received some good news.
"I think this time we're going to get her brother" Thor said happily grinning at Loki.
"Hmm. I'll celebrate when she's in my arms" Loki replied bitterly. He was fed up with getting his hopes up only to have just missed her. They were always too late.

The woman changed the clip on the screen to surveillance footage of Starks party when the attack happened. Y/N felt her heart break watching herself dance with Loki. Then she saw when she lead him out and then when she was alone in the hallway. What she saw next shocked her. That was not how the story went in her head.