Autumn • Complete

Planning

I've decided how to do it. Thankfully, Fabian didn't offer me any food at the picnic, and last night I pondered over ways. Jumping. Its as easy as that.

I skip school. Why go and learn when I no longer have anything to learn for? Christian calls me a good few times, but I ignore him. If we talk, I might break down and tell him everything. About Plan B, and how it didn't matter if Plan A didn't work. I'm sat at my desk at home, and Dad is at work. I pull out a pen and paper, and start on my suicide letters.

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Fabian,

You were my first ever real friend. I love you as a friend and as family, as you have been like a brother to me these past months. But I can't do this anymore.

Please forgive me, and please live your life the way you should.

I am leaving you my love and all my empty notepads (I know you like to write and I can't think of anything else to leave you)

Autumn.

PS. Tell Alik's thank you and tell him he has to look after you, and you him.

PPS I love you xxx

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Camille

I know we're not exactly great friends, and I know you dated Christian, but I'm happy you've found someone else and that your happy. I liked you from the start, even if I didn't admit it to myself. You're fiesty, sweet, gorgeous, and a little funny. Yeah, only a little. I'm sorry, but this world wasn't good enough for me. I hope you can forgive me.