Lawful Obsession - [On-Going]

CHAPTER 2 - Aristaeus Farell

CHAPTER 2 - Aristaeus  Farell

I get up exactly at 5 am, my body clock. Medyo masakit pa rin ang katawan ko but I manage to stand up and head to the kitchen. Pero ngayon ko lang na realize na masyadong malaki ang bahay para saakin. I walked and visit where the sala set is, a large television welcome me. And there's a glass sliding door where you can find a mini garden. I open and a cold breeze greet my skin, it's refreshing. Napa pikit ako at dinama ang hangin.

Hinayaan ko lang na nakabukas ang glass door at bahagyang umupo sa malambot na sofa. Tila hinihila ako nang antok kaya nahiga at nag isip kung ako lang ba ang nakatira ngayon dito. I should've felt uncomfortable knowing I am in someone's territory. But for some reason, I want to stay here. Am I being selfish?

Nakaramdam ako nang pag angat ng katawan, I smell a manly perfume covering my senses. I half-open my eyes and there, he is more mature than the picture in the frame. I finally see his jaw clenching up close. And those deep grey eyes of his, it's so menacing. I wanted to touch his face but my body feels weak, I feel vegetative. I hear his heart beating as he breathes. It's like a piece of music in my ears. If this is a dream, I won't mind waking up.

I heard a sudden knock and my adrenaline drives me. May exam ako! Fear crept into my system and once I open the door, I accidentally bump someone. My eyes are in shock, lagot ako!

"So-sorry po!" Nakayukong sabi ko.

What did I do? What if someone kicks me out? You're so clumsy Leizel! What if you angry someone! No! I cannot!
Patuloy akong nang hihingi nang tawad sa taong nabangga ko. Sa sobrang pag iisip ko ay nanghina ako at hindi ko inintindi ang mga sinasabi ng babaeng nabangga ko dahil napaluhod ako.

"I'm so S-sorry po! I didn't..."

My hand is trembling, no, not now! I held my other hand and hide it at my back as I keep mumbling my apology. I cannot do anything mistake in this state! So many what if's running through my mind. And there, I heard a familiar voice.

"What's happening here?"

"S-sir, please don't kick me out" I kept saying those words as I plead to him. My tears are continually falling under my cheeks. Nahihirapan na ako huminga, ang lakas nang tibok ng puso ko. Agad nanlabo ang mga mata ko nang makita ko ang pares nang sapatos sa harapan ko. And a glimpse of memory comes up.

"Huwag po t-tito" I mumbled after everything went blur, I saw those pair of eyes coming through me.

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"She had a panic attack, I advise you to see a therapist. And it seems Mrs. Farell taking antidepressants. And I think she skips one kaya little things trigger her panic. Lalo na ngayon na hindi pa malinaw sakanya ang mga nangyayari. Panic attack happens when it triggers her sudden new  environment, confusion, long period of stress, and sometimes a memory of past that seems familiar to her"

I heard a non-familiar voice. I had a panic attack? And I remember, I didn't take my medicine in the past few days. I know I have that kaya once na akong nag punta sa psychiatrist para maagapan. Pero, she advise me to take an anti-depressant. I don't know how to cope up, kaya ayon nalang ang naging solution ko.

Kailangan kong mag paka tatag dahil sarili ko lang aasahan ko. It's hard, sometimes I wanna end up and stop enduring the pain. But I promise to my papa na kahit anong mang yari, kakapit ako. But he left me and it's my fault. I subside my conscience when I heard a slamming door.

As I open my eyes, I met his gaze. I still don't know his name. Is he my so-called husband? He looked intimidating to me like a lion waiting for his prey. Scary.

"How are you?" His deep voice echoed to my ears. He looks at me intently like he's scanning my system. I gulp and look away. I can't resist his eyes.

Before I answer him a knock on the door interrupted us. And there a butler comes in with a tray. He give it to I don't know the name and went out.

"You should eat before we talk" Inilagay niya ang tray sa tabi ko at naupo sa gilid ng kama. I gulp again, seeing those food making me salivate.

"I-I'm fine. I think we should talk n-now" I try to talk normally, but seeing his face meter away makes me stutter. But silence wrapped around us when my stomach make a noise. Shit

"As much as I wanted to talk to you right now, you need first to eat"

Wala na akong nagawa dahil sa kahihiyan. Inabot niya saakin ang boul na may porridge at saka ko ito kinain. Habang kumain ako ay nag ring ang phone niya at nag excuse para lumabas. Medyo natagalan ako kumain at nang matapos ako ay niligpit ko ang boul at glass ng water at saka bababa na sana nang bumukas ang pinto. Dahil sa gulat ko ay muntik ko nang mabagsak ang tray but he's fast enough to guide me, and the tray.

"Don't roam around for now Leizel. Whenever you want anything just call your butler."

"I can manage naman... po"

He sighed at inagaw ang tray sa kamay. Wala na akong nagawa dahil hindi ko naman ito pamamahay.

"Just rest for the day. I need to go for some business matter"

Paano na kami mag uusap?

"We'll talk when you rested enough. Stay still. Everything's gonna be okay" He talked like he knew me. His deep voice is seducing me to his assuring utter. I just nodded and before he left, he guided me through the bed.

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Ilang oras akong nag pahinga at hindi nakatiis ay lumabas ako. I sneak to the library para kumuha ng mababasa. Wala naman sigurong masama, lalo na't wala akong nakitang tao para mag paalam. Pag pasok ko ay nakita ko ang table at swivel chair. Para itong office, hindi ito kalahihan pero maayos ang mga pag kasalansan ng mga gamit. I picked a book by Nicholas Spark and open it. I see a name, is it him?

Bryle Aristaeus Farell.