Saskia Book 2

Chapter-Twelve

Chapter Twelve,

I need her....

James POV

I haven't thought about anything other than her.

Since that day I met her she has never left my mind. My wolf also keeps asking for her. He hated the fact I wanted to reject her because of the gossip about her being a human.

I had to remind him we were a strong pack and need only the best and strongest for our pack.

He told me it was a mistake to not want our mate.

When we met her again at the challenge event. It was harder to not want her, she was perfect and beautiful.

When I seen her fight she was amazing, no she wolf could content with her, seeing her wolf for the first time was an incredible experience.

When she ran I had to convince her father to let me calm her wolf.

I wanted her, seeing her under me naked. It has been the best sight I have ever seen. I took her and her innocence away.

I did feel guilty but we wanted her forever that was the plan.

Until she told me about her mother and she's half human and all the complications that comes with it.

I froze when she told me and honestly didn't know what to do.

I knew when she left with her pack, I was numb couldn't think straight.

I knew I shouldn't but I tried sleeping with two she wolfs at different times to get Saskia out of my system but it didn't work.

I went back home and tried to keep my mind off her with hard work. I couldn't remember the last time I had a good nights sleep.

I was a mess and it went on for months. It was torcher, nothing was worth this pain and heartache I didn't think it was real until now. My mind wasn't healthy for the pack, I couldn't have sex nothing appealed to me like Saskia. I was aggressive and colder than normal. Training all the time but it was not to think anymore.

My dad's old friend and my Beta that brought me up since my parents were taking away from me.

"you need to sort yourself out"

I lie. "I'm managing fine"

"you can't hide anything from me and I'm the only one to confront you, every one else is a afraid of you and your wolf, its like you your turning mad"

"what are you trying to say, I was only ever putting the pack first and now your turning against me"

"you don't realize that putting yourself first by excepting her as your mate under all circumstances would help your pack for peace and greatness"

"now all we feel is your misery and it's upsetting the balance of your pack. You must show from example, you have been blessed with meeting your mate, designed for you and mates rejecting and taking chosen mates, it's insanity"

I could feel his pain.

"if I was lucky as you, I would beg her for forgiveness and hope she would be by my side, you can't imagine what I would give to have that choice"

"but you don't realize the risks involved and"

"please, everything in life is a risk that's the beauty of it"

I knew I couldn't win this argument

"you have a beautiful, strong and clever mate, who's father is also your predecessor ultimate alpha. Its a perfect match"