My Brothers Friend

11. The End of Us

Its been a couple of days since your heart broke. You've spoke to Ethan almost every single day but haven't said a word to Q. He's been trying to reach out, calling, sending texts, voice mails the whole lot. Even seeing his name come up on your phone makes your heart sink, does he even know what he's done? or is he just trying to contact me and thinking im ignoring him for the fun of it.

Its now the Christmas holidays. You've finished school and you're sitting on the sofa waiting for Ethan to land in JFK so he is home for Christmas. Mum is currently at work so you're home alone when there's a knock on your door.

'i'm not expecting anyone?' you get up to the door cautious of who it may be. You cant tell by the outline of the figure so you open the door slightly

'hey..'

You take a step back from the doors. Your eyes instantly tear up and your breathing becomes fast

'you're not welcome here you need to leave' you sniffle 

'no please y/n can we talk we need to' Q says in a calm tone

'Q seriously, fuck off' you cry

'i'm going no where sorry, we gotta talk' he takes a step in the house.

You compose yourself quickly and refuse to make any eye contact with him. You open the door more allowing him to enter the house. You point to the kitchen where you both walk and sit opposite each other at the dining table.

'let me explain'

'Q there's nothing to explain, the picture says it all, we aren't even in a relationship and we never will be now so its done' you say

'I was drunk, really really drunk and you called me an asshole and the girl started dancing with me and talking and one thing just lead to another' he says with guilt in his eyes

'Q i really do not care what you have to say. You slept with me, gave me the hope you wanted something with me, telling me how much you care for me then you go and do that, and try to explain yourself? What explain your'e a dickhead' your voice gets louder and louder

'y/n please'

'No Q im sorry no, I liked you so so much and had so much trust in you and I really really thought we had something going, you broke me that night and ruined it all'

'I'm sorry' he lets out a sigh

'no you're not, you wouldn't have done it if you even felt a bit of guilt inside you for going near the girl' you stand up slamming your hands on the table

'look I don't want to argue, i understand you're pissed i really do y/n and I do really like you it was just a mistake'

'a mistake you made while we were still only talking, cant imagine what mistakes you would make if we were in a relationship Q, you need to leave' you fold your arms

'Ok i understand ill go, but 'im really sorry y/n i really am'

'I don't want to see you again Q, this is done, you be Ethan's friend and that's all'

'y/n please' he cries

'Bye Q'

you close the door behind him as he leaves. You take a deep breath and hold in your tears, It was so hard for you to not stand and scream and cry at him and forgive him. If hes managed to mess up this early on knowing eachother you dont even want to know what might happen later on. 

You go to the living room where you see Q walking away from your house dragging his feet against the floor with his hands on his head. Your heart drops, you sit down and take a moment to think, it was one mess up, a bad one yes but you've been horrible to him plenty of times, but that was before you two started something serious, no, you want forgive him, he messed up. You shake your head and turn the TV on. In the corner of your eye you see Q is no longer walking alone, he's now standing, talking to someone

'Oh shit' you run and swing open the front door, sprinting down the street towards Q, and Ethan

'Ethan, Ethan wait'

'why the fuck would you do that to her Q? seriously dude'

'it was a mistake Ethan' you shout

'Y/n go back inside let me talk for a bit'

'No. we've just spoke its sorted we are done he's leaving' you say out of breath as you now stand next to Q opposite your brother

'i didn't want this to happen in the first place yet you still do this? not just to her but to me dude' Ethan says

'look i know i fucked up i'm aware it was a big mistake i wasn't all there I do really like y/n she knows this' Q says

Ethan turns to look at you rubbing a hand on the back of his neck not knowing what to do, he's angry for you but at the same time he's grown up with Q

'i'm not making you choose sides Ethan, do whatever he's your friend' you turn and walk back to the house as Q grabs hold of your hand. You turn around with tears in your eyes looking at him

'please i'm sorry' he frowns

'I know, but its done now' you pull your hand away crying as you walk back to the house. You go to your room sitting on the bed crying your eyes out

'Hey sis'

Ethan walks in placing himself on the bed next to you with an arm around you

'I know he's my friend but he's fucked up and he knows that, Q is a really good guy y/n he wouldn't have done it to hurt you or anything I think it was a mistake'

'I know it was a mistake Ethan but i'm not someone he can walk over, he's seen my at my weakest its done, i have so much love for him but i cant' you sniff

He pulls you in for a hug to comfort you

'maybe sit and talk to try work something out'

'Ethan please, its done'

He sighs and continues to hug you, you've missed your brother being home, but as you've gained him you've lost someone else in your life.