My Brothers Friend

12. Christmas

Its Christmas Eve and for the last couple of years its been tradition for all the guys to spend it at our house to make Joe feel more comfortable around Christmas after losing his dad not too long ago. 

Every inch of the house is decorated to perfection. Theres a load of food all around the kitchen and on the dining table, Christmas music is playing and yourself, Ethan and Mum are getting ready for the guys

'Hey, you going to be okay, its the first time youre seeing Q since he came over'

'Ill be fine, I can push things aside Ethan'

'alright well let me know if you get uncomfortable' He smiles

'So when are all my sons getting here!' Mum shouts through the house

'soon mum soon' the two of you laugh. Mum absolutely loves the guys and will forever treat them like her own children, this is like her Christmas but for her other set of kids. 

Since you last saw Q you've completly changed up your look, you wanted to feel new and fresh again. Your hair is cut to shoulder length and dyed to a beautiful blonde balayage. You got yourself a cute new gold nose ring and had your nails done for christmas. Youve just finished waving your hair and getting dressed into some leggings with an oversized hoodie as theres a knock on the door.

'Oh my boys merry Christmas!!' Mum shouts as she greets Joe, Sal, Murr and Q.

You take a deep breath before walking down the stairs and greeting all of them

'Wow a whole new look!! you look amazing' Joe says while reaching for a hug

'this is a big change from the long black hair and piercings i like it' Sal smiles

'you look like Rapunzel when she cuts all her hair off, it really suits you y/n' Murr says 

You thank each one with a hug then you get to Q.

'you look beautiful' Q smiles

'thanks' you awkwardly smile before walking away, without a hug

'Okay lets sit and eat food' Ethan says

You all go to the kitchen and sit around the table. You're placed between Joe and Sal with Q opposite you who has Ethan and your Murr on either side of him, with Mum sitting at the head of the table.

'tuck in everyone' mum says

everyone is sat eating and drinking for around 3 hours, having fun and playing some games. You've felt a bit uncomfortable but you've done your best at hiding it. You haven't spoke or even made eye contact with Q. 

'Okay so, I was going to save this information for tomorrow, Christmas day but since everyone is here why not now' The table goes quiet as mum speaks

'y/n' she says

'yea? whats up' you lean forward. Ethan and Mum keep smiling at eachother before finally breaking the silence

'so your uncle dylan in Miami, hes opened up his nightclub and bar and hes always been aware that you've wanted to be a dancer and VIP hostess at venues, so hes offered to fly you out there and pay for an apartment so you can spend the year over there taking classes specifically for dancing on stage with other girls so by time you're 21 youll be all trained and ready to start' She smiles alongside Ethan

Your jaw drops. Ever since you were younger you've always wanted to be a dancer at venues. nothing sexual, you've always been passionate about dance and being an entertainer and while growing up you decided working in a nightclub would be best for you. You've always been a wild child, drinking, going out with a fake ID. This is a dream come true

'youre joking arent you' you sit back in the chair

'shes being serious y/n, miami!!' Ethan shouts

'Miami is so far away though' you look over at Q, locking eyes for the first time that night

'it sounds like an amazing opportunity tho' Sal says smiling

' it is amazing, plus dance classes for it for the year, its great but, Miami' you frown

'Hunny you should do it, it will be great for you to get away from staten island for a while and its your dream to dance' mum says

You look back at Q, he seems sad but you cant let that affect you, you're not anything anymore

'okay, fine tell him I wanna go' you smile

'ahh yay!!!' Mum stands up clapping her hands and running to give you a hug.

You wrap your arms around her, looking at Q over her shoulder, who is smiling at you with pure pain in his eyes. 

'this is amazing, i cant wait, when will i go?' you ask

'He said January time' Ethan replies

'Thats soon' Q says

'yea it is... mum youll be alone'

'dont worry about me, im always working my love ill be fine'

You smile at her

'okay well tell Uncle Dylan ill go and that im so excited'  A huge grin appears on your face, your dreams are coming true. 

'im so happy for you' Joe says wrapping an arm around you

'we are all!' Murr says

'thank you guys I appreciate it, i gotta go to the bathroom quick' You get up and head up towards the bathroom. 

You look at yourself in the mirror. This is your dream and it has been for years but why do you feel like you cant leave, for Q.

You leave the bathroom and met by Q heading to the other bathroom

'hey, im happy for you' he says

'shut up' you reply trying not to cry

'what?'

'just shut up okay' you say with a tear rolling down your cheek

'whats wrong?'

'I cant Q, I am so so in love with you and im only 19, im so hurt by what youve done but the thought of being all the way in Miami, no where near you is killing me inside'

He grabs your hand and wipes the tear off your cheek

'I hurt you, that should be enough for you to be able to go and leave to Miami, this is your dream y/n from the day we met this has been your future, you gotta go do it. Im in love with you too, but you need to do this' he says

You pull your hand away and quickly wipe away your tears. You give him a weak smile before making your way down the stairs. You go back to the table where everyone is cleaning up. You sit next to Ethan on the sofa

'Ethan I love him' you say looking at him

'I know you do y/n, and he loves you, but this is your future you need to do it, if your paths cross again then its meant to be, but you need to go Miami' 

'i know and im going Miami nothing is changing that but god its breaking me' your eyes start watering

'youll be fine y/n, you need to move on' he frowns

'youre right' you go to the kitchen to help your mum clean up

'mum' you say

'yes whats wrong sweetheart' she asks

'do you think you can ask Dylan if I can go there next week'

'what?' she spins around

'I wanna go sooner rather than later, I dont want to change my mind, i wanna go there now mum'

'oh, okay, let me call him.' she smiles and gives you a hug

'im so proud of you for taking this massive leap' she smiles

'thanks mum'