Insanity

Chapter Fourteen

Today's Date: October 12, 2011

Dear Journal,

I met up with Will and CJ in the rec room and got to know them each a little better before I decided to ask them about escaping. I was hesitant at first but I thought to myself this was my only chance so, I asked. I decided to ask Will first but I have a strong feeling, he'll agree. I asked Will to walk with me so we can talk and I asked him and he agreed with a smile on his face. He said if I ever made it to mainstream news to mention his name. I guess he wanted his fifteen seconds of fame like everyone else does. I told him that I was thinking of a way to escape and I needed this to stay as confidential as possible. He gave me one of his nods when he gets excited. I walked over to CJ and asked him to sit down so we could talk. He sat down and it took me a little bit longer to come out and say it because I don't know how he would feel about helping me escape. Once I finally got the nerve to say it; he gave me a weird look and I knew I had probably just fucked myself but I had to wait for a yes or a no. It took him a little bit to say something so, I pleaded with him. I told him I would not get him in trouble and that I would take the blame for anything. I told him Will had agreed to do it and I think that is what sealed the deal because he finally agreed to do it. Before I knew it, the nurses had walked in and started escorting everyone back into their rooms. My usual nurse wasn't here so, she gave me my medicine and walked out without even mentioning her name. I didn't really give a fuck because I was going to be getting out of here in a week or two. I'm just waiting for the perfect moment to open up and I will be jumping at with everything in me. This plan can go either way; I can succeed or I can fail but I refuse to fail. Everything in my life has failed up to this point; might as well give it one last shot. The pill taste is so bitter but at least I didn't have to wait two minutes before the nurse left to spit them out. I wish I had a computer or something to look up the pills and see what they do exactly because I feel that they are not telling us something. Maybe, I'm just paranoid but I have this weird feeling and I always stick with my gut, no matter what. The nurses are so fucking loud when it gets quiet. All they talk about is the men they're with and what they do for themselves and all I want to do is go snap each and everyone of their necks so, it can be peaceful for just one fucking minute. I just need to calm down and take deep breaths so, I won't do something that can possibly get me the electric chair. It'd be better than here but that's not something I'm willing to take. After three deep breaths, I calm down and I continue thinking about ways of escaping but their is too many kinks in my plan. I need to get those figured out before I attempt anything. I guess I'll go figure those out until I think it's good enough. I'll write some more later..

Until Next Time,

Vince.