Insanity

Chapter Twenty

**A/N: I decided to not do a journal update on this chapter because of the stuff that is about to be taking place! I hope you guys enjoy!**

Today's Date: October 26, 2011

       I could barely sleep last night from thinking about what was going to happen today. Getting off the hard floor of the treehouse was harder than the day before. I felt like an older man who had fallen and tried to get up with not much luck. Once, I was finally up and on my feet; I decided to walk over to the non-existent window that my dad failed at making. I don't really talk much about my dad but he was a good man and he would've never had let me get this bad off in my life. That's the bad thing about life; the good ones die young. He was 45 when he passed away and my mom had taken it rough. She turned to booze and drugs. Just being in the treehouse that he built me, tore me up inside but I couldn't show any emotions because people will think you're weak!

        I couldn't stand to be in the treehouse much longer so, I decided to go see what Ryan was up too. He's not someone I can trust but I doubt he'll snitch me out because he knows I mean business. Usually, the walk to the road was peaceful but I kept hearing weird noises from far away. I decided to run as fast as I could because I was not about to be taken back to that piece of shit place but maybe, I'm hearing noises because I'm paranoid but I wasn't about to take that risk. Once, I finally made it to the hotel without being seen, I knock on Ryan's door. I keep knocking and knocking and nobody is answering. I start panicking so, I ran down the stairs and then I hear Ryan screaming at me.

        I run back up the stairs and pushed Ryan's thin, twig-like body back into the room. I gave him the meanest look I had ever given someone in my entire life. I couldn't be mad long because he at least called me back up.

I look at him with a no bullshit look and ask: "What the fuck were you doing that took you so long to open to the damn door?"

Ryan pauses for a second and says: "You scared the shit out of me. I thought you were the fucking police by the way you was knocking. Don't ever scare me like that again."

I laughed and said: "Sorry dude! I just feel like the cops are catching up with me and this was the only place I could turn too."

        He looks at me and tells me to take a seat and to relax. I sit down and try to relax with an occasional peep out of the window. Grabbing the remote, I decided to turn on the television and watch a few shows until it got dark enough to walk back to the rats house. Flipping through the channels, I see that the news is on and guess who is the star? I was shocked because I never thought I would be on the biggest news channel. Will popped into me head because he said if I ever made it to mainstream news to mention him. Something told me to get the fuck away from the hotel. I didn't even say good bye; I just got up and ran! I knew I didn't have the energy to run anymore but I made it this far and I wasn't about to give up! 

        I ran to the nearest woods and fell to the ground. Grasping for my breath, I felt like I was going to pass out at any minute. Propping myself up against a tree, I wiped away the sweat from my forehead. Pressing my fist into the dry soil was the only way to get my stress level down. I kept closing my eyes trying my hardest to picture me leading a different life in a different scenery. Who was I kidding? That would never happen for me because I'm just another fuck up in this messed up world that we live in. I had nobody that cared about me or nobody who would miss me if I died today. I can't think about that right now though. My only mission is to kill the rat who betrayed me and it was getting closer and closer until we finally meet again.

        The sun was finally going down and the moon was rising which meant I should start heading over to the rats house and finally seek my revenge. Pulling the gun out of my back pocket sent a smile to my face. I walked and walked until I just stopped to take a break. My legs were tired and my feet were killing me. After about a five minute break, I continue on with my walk. I finally reach the end of the woods and see Bryan's house up ahead. I keep my distance in the woods because I see a police car sitting on the side of the road in front of their house. Those pigs must have warned them that I had escaped and decided to watch them for their "protection". I wouldn't dare hurt Bryan's parents. They were always so nice to me even though, they probably didn't want Bryan around me. Especially, after that time I got sent to juvie but who really gives a fuck. Their son will pay for his mistakes and that's a damn promise.

        I watch Bryan's parents get in their car and drive off which meant it was game time. I creep up to the side of the house and look for the guest bedroom window. I look inside the room but I couldn't really see much because of the light being turned off. I creep over to Bryan's window and look in and see him on his computer. I instantly got heated after seeing him so, I creep to the back of the house. Opening the screen door was a little challenging because I didn't want it to make any noises so, I opened it just enough where I could slide through. Once, I was on the porch, I knew it was game on! I fiddled with the door and it was locked, shit. I rang the doorbell and hid in the shadow. Hearing his footsteps made my blood boil. The light came on and the door open slightly and I took full advantage of it. We fought with getting the door open but I managed to get through it. The fucking pussy ran for the front door but I tackled his ass and pulled him up then slammed him against the wall.

Looking dead in his eyes, I screamed and said: "How the fuck could you turn me in? You were my bestfriend, man. I would've never done you like that. You hurt me so bad and you don't really seem to care!"

His skin lost all of it's color and he couldn't even get a straight answer out. All he could say was: "B-b-b-u-u-u...."

"Shut the fuck up, you stuttering little bastard. You never really cared about our friendship, didn't you? You was probably my friend because you felt bad for me. Was that it?", I said.

He starts screaming and begging me to not to hurt him. I guess he got a glimpse of the gun hanging out of my pocket. My hand slid to the gun and I pulled it out and pointed it at his face. Just to show him that I'm not playing anymore. I took a deep breath and just stared at Bryan's pale face. I knew he was scared but he hurt me and I have to hurt him. 

"You know, I didn't really care that much about Trevor and Amber testifying against me but when you did it, it really showed me that I had nobody on this planet. Before, I felt like I could turn to you with anything now, I know I was really fucked up in the head for even trusting you", I said with hurt in my eyes.

Bryan finally caught his words because he said, "I'm sorry, Vince! I thought I was helping you out. I didn't want you to do anything else that was crazy. I was thinking about what would be best for you. Our friendship meant the world to me. Even though, everyone told me to not hang out with you because you was a bad influence, I still did. Doesn't that tell you anything? I stuck with you even though, the world was telling me not too".

My finger slids onto the trigger and he starts screaming louder. I look at him and tell him to shut the fuck up before those pigs burst in. I start thinking about what he said and allowed them to sink in. I pointed the gun closer to his face and my ears started ringing as he let out this loud scream. Before, I could do anything, the pigs bursted in and I immediately turned and pointed my gun at them. I wasn't going down without a fight so, I fired a shot and missed one of the officers. Bullets started flying through my body and I fall to the floor. As, I'm laying on the floor and I take in my surroundings, I realized I was finally able to let myself go. I look at Bryan and I think about what it would feel like if I didn't forgive him before I departed. I looked at the officers and how they saved someones life from a deranged person. I finally was going to be free from making mistakes and hurting other people. I wasn't this heartless person that everyone made me out to be. I had a heart but I only chose to use it when it was needed too. I felt my breathes getting lighter and lighter before everything finally went black.

                                                                             The End!