~skips to end of the day ~
I can't cope! It's driving me insane! I shouldn't have run away! Ugh! I'm so stupid! But I couldn't help it! He shouldn't have acted like that and been so fucking immature! Yet I still "love" him! I've ignored everyone all day! Nobody messed around at lunch. I sat on a different table. So did Johnnie! The rest of them just sat there like wtf! I ran to the bus to avoid anyone and sat at the back. I keep on getting continuous messages asking if I'm OK and what the fuck is actually going on but I'm ignoring them all.
I can't stop crying! It's all my fault! No it's not! It's Johnnie's!
"UUUGGGHHH!!" I moan.
I'm so sorry Johnnie!
I'm so sorry Kyle!
I'm so sorry Drake!
I'm so sorry Damon!
I'm the reason the groups broke right now! I grab my razor.. I haven't done this "trick" for a month now...but I can't help it! I draw the blade across my arm and let the blood trickle down. It wasn't deep. It only scratched the skin. So I go again, deeper this time. And again. And again. And again. Each time the cuts get more deeper.
Then my phone starts to vibrate..then ring! I look over to see that it's Johnnie! Ugh fuck off you son of a bitch! I let it ring out! There's silence.
I then look at my wrists...they are a mess of blood!
IM SUCH A WORTHLESS BITCH! WHY THE FUCK DO I EVEN DO THIS TO MYSELF!! I SHOULD JUST DIE!! NO!! DONT LET THE DEMONS WIN!
My phone starts to ring again, Johnnie! I pick it up with trembling fingers.
(V=violet J=Johnnie)
J= where the hell have you been? I've been worried sick!
V= oh! I've just been out with my parents! My phone had low battery so I had to leave it on charge!
J= what's wrong? You sound like you've been crying?
V= oh..n..nothing! I. I'm s..so so..rry j..j..Johnnie!
J= Violet! What have you done? No! Please no! Look I'm coming right over!
V= no! Johnnie it's OK!
J= no it's not! I'm so sorry! I never meant to hurt you!
V= it's not your fault!
J= yes it is! And I've got to go! I'll see you in a minute! Don't do anything else stupid!
~~~~~~~end of call~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I heard the knock on the door. I stood up. But I was weak from the loss of blood, and the blood still falling! I flopped onto the bed! My head starts to feel light and objects around the room start to become fuzzy. Like they are fading away! I hear a door open and someone shouting but they're so far away I can't make out what they are saying...
Blackness!
A.N.
DUN DUN DUN!!
I'm leaving you on a major cliffhanger! But it is only fair as I have done a double upload!!
Ive got loads planned for the next chapter so theres loads in store!
Love ya all
Bye bye x
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Fanfichey! I'm writing my first Johnnie Gilbert fan fiction yay!! this is a story about a girl called Violet who meets Johnnie at school. she can't believe that she is at the same school as Johnnie but soon a just going to school with Johnnie relationshi...
