You are my happiness

Chapter 12: confessions

"Hey Violet!" Johnnie says as he rushes over to me. He smothers me in a big hug...OMG his hugs are like..the best!
"Hey Violet!" Bryan says as he walks over to me. As I've never met him before I'm fangirling like there's no tomorrow. I don't know weather to scream and run at him or just act casual.
"Um..hey!" I wave awkwardly.
They both sit down on the bed. Johnnie keeps on staring at me and, if I'm honest, its freaking me out. He has such an intense stare its enough to break even the hardest of people... Wait! What if that's what he wants? What if he wants me to tell him?
"Uhh...so what did you guys do last night?" I say, wanting to break this silence.
"We.." But Bryan was cut short by Johnnie.
"That doesn't matter. You never answered last night...here's your chance! We've all rested and are awake. So I'm pretty sure there's nothing in your way now!" He says sternly. Well shit! I know that I can't escape and I have to tell him..
I take a deep breath.
"Well... First of all I don't understand your whole problem with me and Kyle! I mean come on! I'd only been there for a day! Me and Kyle are just friends! Like me and Damon, me and Drake... Me and you! If he loves me then that's his friken problem not yours not mine! And anyway if he did then I wouldn't be returning the favour! I don't understand why you get yourself so caught up! And you had to flipping argue with me? You're acting so immature! And I was hurt and angry at you! That's why I ran away! I needed some time alone! But I'd convinced myself that we'd all be friends again by break...but that never happened. I couldn't deal with going home with any of you..I needed some time to think. But then as I got home and was in my room I felt guilty! I mean before I'd come you were all the best of friends and then little me comes in and the next minuet we were all angry and shit. I felt worthless and like I'm a hinderence to everyone! I can't make anyone happy! So that's why I cut! I didn't and couldn't talk to any of you! I wouldn't know who to speak to and what to say! I didn't plan on cutting deep..it just kinda happened. You see it wasn't a suicide attempt! I was just wanting to release some of my pain! When you phoned up I hoped for you to come and maybe me be able to tell you everything! I heard you open the door to my house so I stood up to go downstairs but as I stood up I felt dizzy.. And then I guess I fainted!" I explained. It felt like a weight had been lifted of my shoulders. Im someone who bottles up my feelings so you have to have a great deal of trust for me to tell you something. But then again I haven't told Johnnie and Bryan everything.. I don't know if I ever will..they still have ALOT if trust to prove!
Johnnie and Bryan just looked at me. No sound came out of their mouths. They then came over to me and gave me the biggest hug ever. I couldn't help it! The tears just flew out of my eyes.

A.N.
Hey! I feel like its good to end the chapter here! So yeah this girl is admitting her problems to Johnnie! She's just like me. I always bottle up my feelings and emotions. I don't know why. Maybe its cuz I feel there stupid or cuz nobody will understand... I don't know. I just do! So if I admit something to you and its from deep down then you should feel privileged that you've earned my trust!
Anyway think I may do a double upload!!
Love you all
Bye bye x