shinsou / soushin oneshots

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no warnings!!!! it's just edgy

"Ahaha... You're so useless, Shin. Say you're useless." I shook my head. "Say it."

I sighed. "Sou, where are you?" I said to myself. I'm in a train, surrounded by so many other people. I just want Sou to be on this train with me already... He said he'd be on this one. I heard the doors open and people walking out. "Come on, Sou... get on this stop..."

I gripped on the pole. I'm not used to this many people, and plus, it's rush hour. I'm getting a headache from all the people's voices and their clanky boots... "Oh, there you are, Shin! Sorry I kept you waiting." I shushed him. "Not so loud. I have a headache." "Ahaha. Sorry." He sat at a nearby seat. "I'll show you where we are going soon. It's going to take a while."

"Really... I waited so long for you to get on this stupid train just for you to say that..." He giggled. "Don't worry. It's only twenty minutes anyway."

The train started to move again. I decided to shut up and sit there quietly. I closed my eyes. I find it odd that almost all of the people on this train got off at that stop. There's only around seven people left... I never realized how many people left.

This seems odd. Where did everyone go? I opened my eyes again and looked around. It's so empty... "Sou...? Where are we going?" I asked. "Somewhere downtown." He replied with barely any context. I sighed, he isn't going to give me any information if I ask him. I looked at the windows. It's sunset now and I don't recognize this area at all.

I anxiously looked around. Who are these people? It's all dead... The places, houses... Where the hell am I? "Are you sure this is the right area...?" I turned to Sou. "Of course. Sorry if it bothers you, I go to this place if I..." He paused. "Calm down, yes."

I sat down next to him. I'm getting dizzy. Sou put a hand on my hand. "It'll be alright."

This pit in my stomach is unreal. I need to get off, but I can't tell him. The train stopped. Sou stood up, "Come on." I quickly got up and rushed out. "I-I feel so dizzy... Where are we?" I asked. "Aw, I thought it'd calm you down. Look how pretty it is." I looked up. "I-I'm just getting..." I pause. "Sick... I feel so..." I take a deep breath. "So... insanely scared..."

Sou took my hand and starting walking me somewhere towards an abandoned building. "This is my favorite area. Let's go in, hm?" I shook my head. "Please, give me a rest first..." I mumbled, holding my head. "No fun. You can handle it." He said, taking me in.

I shakily walked with him. I close my eyes, letting Sou guide me. "Are you feeling better?" I opened my eyes. "No... not at all..." I asked.

"That's a shame. I prefer you when you're happier." I shivered. That doesn't sound good. Maybe it's nothing. I gripped tighter on his hand. "Did I scare you or something?" He giggled. I stayed quiet. "Shin? ...Shinnn. Yoo hoo."

He let go of my hand and elbowed me. I looked at Sou. "W-What...?" I mumbled. "I'm sorry I-I... I can't pay attention..." He scoffed, gripping onto my wrist. "Come on. We're almost to the top." He said, leading me more towards some brightly lit stairs. That must be the top.

I shivered. The breeze isn't calming anymore, coming in through the broken windows.

This... this feeling... it feels traumatic. It feels like I'm going through something awful. Sou leads me out of the building, onto the rooftop. "Sit on the edge. Maybe admiring the view will calm you down?" He said. It's blood red at the bottom with a lighter red to a darkish purple. It's certainly something. I sat at the ledge.

I widened my eyes. I feel a shoe on my back. "Maybe death will fix your problem?"

I can't turn around, but I know that's Sou. Is he trying to say he wants me dead? "N-No... it won't... S-Surely... I'll feel better soon..." What is he thinking? He's willing to kill me? The push on his shoe got more aggressive, pushing me a bit. "S-Sou...! Don't do t-this..."

"Why not? You're not very useful in this world. If you died..." He snickered. "I bet no one would care!"

It felt like my heart shattered, right there. "If I pushed you off, I'd feel satisfied!" He said, laughing. "I-I... I'm not useless..." I muttered. "Sure, m-many people might not care, but someone will..."

"Ahaha... You're so useless, Shin. Say you're useless." I shook my head. "Say it."

"No..." He pushed a bit more. If he... puts anymore force... I'll fall... "Your life is on the line. If you agree, I'll... hmm... maybe let you go." I need to think of a way out of this. I looked around swiftly. Someone... I don't want to die... "Well? Do you agree?" I could hear my heartbeat. I'll... get out of this... I took a long pause. "N... No..."

"Ahaha. That's a shame, isn't it. Goodbye, Shin." I felt a hard, hard kick on my back, causing me to fall of the building.

Someone... save me...

I gripped onto something. "Gaah...!" A window sill with broken glass. I took a moment to breathe, tearing up. I saved myself. "Hah... hah... I... I did it..." I looked down. I... can land that... If I didn't grab onto this... I'd be dead in seconds... My hand... hurts... I let go, hoping it'll be okay. I closed my eyes and landed. I fell over immediately. I must've broken an ankle.

"Sou..." I mumbled. "Sou... gaah..." I closed my eyes.