The day he saw you, sitting a few steps away from him, a chubby little cute girl.
He had no idea he would be carrying the thought of you even after six years..
He wasn't a good person then, but somewhere and somehow, you changed him. You changed the way he think of girls.
He was crazy for you, and just wanted to talk to you as much as he can.
Desperately waiting for lecture to over so he could just walk to your desk, and talk over any weird topic possible..
Made fun of his own just cus he loved the way you laugh..
Yeah sometimes you were good to him, but many times you hurt him too. Stupid fella still remained available for you ♥.
Rest we both know, he started writing a diary so you could read it, he started reading just cus you wrote em.
And that memory of you with him, in McDonald's 2nd floor playing truth dare
Asking him "who else you like except me" and his getting awkward and calling someone else's name.
That memory still make him smile, still give him a little flashback, maybe I could have tried a little harder in that moment.
Cus loosing you was one of the most painful memories her contains in his heart..
6 years later, still he dreamt about you, holding you from back, close to his chest. It was raining and still he couldn't feel any drop but just the warmth feeling of being around you.
He was happy in that moment, after many months he had felt that happiness in his heart. But as the dream got over, he realised..
Maybe we had a chance..
He still wants to talk to you,
He still wants to hold your hand one last time, asking it not to be last time.
He still see you fighting from something that you dont share, he wants to carry that for you, with you..
He wants to be the guy you hug and let it all out, and realise.. Maybe he wasn't that bad..
Cus he wants to share it all with you..
Or maybe he will just leave this written for strangers and never tell you about how he still feel for you..
Looking at your pictures and realizing.. Maybe we had a chance..
As I have always said in all my diary entries..
I am always there for you..
Yours amarcheap..
