It feels like same everyday, that boring schedule with no change other that every next day is getting harder to survive.
This isn't the first time, but this time I don't find any cure.
You used to excite me, I used to wait for you but now I don't.
Somehow I gave up on everything and now everyday feels like boring, everything feels like worthless.
Why to bath? Why to change clothes? Why to eat? Why to smile? Why to live?
Luckily I am not a suicidal person but..
All those things that used to be interesting is now vanishing or getting dull. I don't laugh on jokes no more, there are very few songs that still hit me.
But it all feels worthless..
However, the day ends and its the only time I feel alive for a few hours.
Living someone else's life via web series and all. I feel alive. I love it.
But as soon as I finish watching it, I am back to my dark room where I am left with questions and songs tearing my ear drum on full volume
Why it went like this when everything was fine
I have people to talk to but why I don't wanna talks? Why I wanna just still alone and hate them all.
Hate all those people I once loved.
Hate all those people whom I used to care the most.
Those who were once my priority.
All with all these questions and severe pain my in neck, I lay down on my bed, throw away the copies and piles of clothes I never wore.
Make some space for my dead body
And suffer to sleep..
With all these screaming in my head and all this silence outside, I wish there was still someone whom I could just....
And the day continues.. The night with questions comes up..
And in dark, my messed up mind still ask me the same question daily
Why its so quiet here
