I sat quiet letting these songs blast into my ears..
Trying to control all of it.. Trying to cover this messed up thing inside me
I can't imagine I can't go to anyone today.. I can't reach anyone
I don't have anyone for this situation
And i guess I didn't want anyone to be there.. I wanted to be alone.. Write all this shit up so I can explain everything to me
I scratched my face a few times.. Covered my face and held my mouth so I don't scream..
I didn't wanted my roommates to know my this side..
After every few minutes I realise I m crushing my teeth too hard and I should release this pressure from my teeth
Messaged em all..
Anyone up? I needed someone to be there.. Hoping this get over quick..cus this anger, this frustration..
All this shit am holding inside was trying to tear my chest out.. And am trying to cover every bit of it..
I wish I had some alcohol.. Some weed.. Or anything to get over this..
Cus all I want to do rn is
SCREAM!
FUCK YOUUU!!
ALL OF YOUUU
FUCKKKK YOUUUUU
