Breakdown // R. Bortuzzo

Letter #10

Dakotah,

It's been months since I last saw you. Over a year. I remember seeing you while I was home for the summer. You looked beautiful and I wanted to go talk to you, but you looked happy. Really happy. I didn't want to change that.

I ducked behind one of the grocery aisles and put my hood over my hat so that you wouldn't notice me before leaving.

You were with your cousin. You always loved when she was in town. Even if it was just for a few days.

I wished that I had just said hi. Maybe something would have sparked a change. Even if it still meant we wouldn't be together, I don't care. I just want you to be here, somewhere, so that I had the chance to run into you again.

Cause God knows how much I miss you.

Sometimes, when I'm playing, I pretend you're watching. Out of all the places you could be, I don't know why you'd be in a freezing cold arena. But would you really feel the cold? Or are you always cold?

Anyway, it makes me play better. You always made me want to be better. I don't know why, but you did. Maybe so that I could give you everything you wanted.

But I guess in the end, I couldn't give you anything that you really needed.

Love,

Robert.