Breakdown // R. Bortuzzo

Letter #14

Dakotah,

It's almost been a year since you left all of us here. I hate to say it, but it's also the first time I've been to your grave since the funeral.

It's a beautiful day. A slight breeze that's giving me chills but that's pretty normal in a cemetery. Isn't it?

I don't know if you're here or not, but I guess that doesn't matter. I'm not sure I want you seeing me crying anyway. I'm sure you have before. I know you did while you were still here.

I miss you more every day. I love you more than words can say. You were such an amazing woman and I'm sorry you weren't able to see that.

Being here for the summer, I'm sure I'll be spending more time here. I actually fell asleep earlier, just resting against the headstone. I may have been up all night not able to sleep because I knew I'd be coming here.

I saw your parents yesterday. Your mom cried when she hugged me. I felt bad, but she told me it wasn't my fault. I'm still like a son to her, even though we never got married.

Being in this town is going to drive me crazy, knowing you'll never be around here anymore.

I'll always love you,
Robert